NoochZahHutt

safe.

((trigger warning, suicidal!Brandon :[))

- Brandon's POV-

I have quite a habit of screwing myself over sometimes. My girlfriend is gone, my friends are far away, and nobody here ever really understands. 

God, you're so stupid. You never should have told her you were bi. 

I  was laying in bed, staring out of my small bedroom window, and the nothingness, the hazy grey clouds that were hanging in the sky. When i was content with the fact that there was nothing out there to see, i rolled over, and gazed at my alarm clock.

4:00 am

I breathed a shaky sigh out and, using my elbows for stability, propped myself up so that i was sitting up in my bed, my legs stretched out in front of me. There was no chance that I was getting to sleep soon, insomnia and anxiety getting the better of me. I turned and swung my legs over the side of my bed, and wobbly stood up. 

You could have still had a girlfriend. You could have made friends at school. You could have been normal.

I blinked away the tears starting to form around my eyes and grabbed my cell phone, slipping it into the pocket of my sweatshirt. Shakily making my way over to the window near my bed, i pulled it open, hearing the faint squeaking noise it made. Putting my right foot out first, i slowly made my way out to my fire escape. 

You're just a fuck up.

I decided to check twitter one last time, where i saw various random tweets, banter, YouTube videos, and a picture of Mat. He was standing in front of LAX, with a huge smile on his face. It was captioned "visiting so-cal for a little while.". I couldn't help but have a little smile on my face. I was glad Mat was getting to see where i became me.

I wonder if Mat would miss me. Would he be sad when he thinks of so-cal?

I pushed the thought out of my head. A guy like Mat would never like a guy like me. I'm too fragile, too broken. 

I'm sorry.

I quickly climbed down my fire escape, feeling the cool January breeze on my face. As my feet hit the pavement, i took off running down the street, not even bothering to look at my surroundings.

Who cares about you?

I entered one of the many parks near my house, and walked down the trail. I kept walking until i passed a dark area with benches, and got to the lake, sitting down in the grass beside it. I pulled my knees up too my chest, and started to quietly sob, each breath hurting more than the last.

"Brandon?" I heard a strong familiar voice speak up behind me. "What are you doing here?"

I took a shaky breath in and continued to sob, unable to stop.

He sat down next to me and i finally got a look at his face.

Mat.

He shushed me, sliding closer to my shuddering body. I felt his arm wrap around my back and he hugged me, enveloping me in his warm embrace. He used one of his hands to tilt my head down and rest it on his shoulder. 

"Shhhh, Brandon. Everything is okay. I'm here with you now, Brandon." 

He rested his soft lips on my temple.

"You're safe."

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Well that was sad to write ;-;

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