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Chapter 25

Chapter 25

I got up noticing I was already late to school, "shit." I muttered to myself Brennens house about 20 minutes away from school so I already know I can't walk, nobody is here which means one, I won't be able to cover my eye and two there's no car to drive myself to school. The closest person to me at the moment is Matt, my phone started ringing and it was Elena, "Hello?" I said "Eve where the fuck are you? You're never late!" She yelled. "I know, I know shut up I'll tell you when I figure out how to get there okay bye." I said quickly hanging up the phone. I called Josh, "Hey Eve sorry I can't get off until 3." I called my mom, "this is why you should've gotten home last night and we wouldn't have this problem." I called my step dad, "no I don't want to." And lastly I called Matt, "of course I can where are you?" considering it was only one day after he got super pissed at me and said he would come in a sweet calm voice shocked me.

I heard a honk outside and rushed down stairs I ran out the door probably forgetting to lock it and quickly swinging Matt's car door open. "What were you doing?" I asked. I noticed he was slightly out of breath and his hair was a bit messy, "nothing." He said focusing on the road, "Matt what were you doing?" I turned to face the back seat and I saw some lady's pink laced thong I turned my head fast facing the road like Matt with a blank face, "Eve? You know for someone who doesn't care about me sure seems mad at the fact I fucked the same bitch I cheated with from school in VA." He yelled with a small tear rolling down, "I don't know what you want from me Eva. We are dysfunctional I know and it's probably all my fault. I'm not that good with dealing with my feelings Eva and you should fucking know that by now." He yelled. I didn't say anything I just stared at the window with quiet tears coming down my face. "We're here." He said sternly and putting the car in park. I slowly got out and turned to say something but decided not to say what's on my mind. I looked down with more tear coming down, "thanks Matt." I turned and was walking to the main office in the school. When I was closer to the school I turned to look at Matt's car which was still there and saw him hit the steering wheeling and wiped the tears from his face and quickly dashing out the school campus.

"Hey Nancy." Nancy is the office lady. "Hey sweetie-oh my god Eve! What happened to your eye?" She asked with fear. I kept my face down signing in, "I got hit with a ball while playing volley ball." I looked up and smiled. "She was shaking her head, "please be careful next time." She handed me a late pass and I walked into my favorite class, Mr. Rivers. I walked into my class with my head high and forgetting how much pain I went through this weekend, "what up bitches Eva is here and she brought her black eye along." I yelled throwing my bag on the nearest desk I was going to sit at. I heard gasps from across the room, "yes I said black eye not the best weekend guys so can we continue with the useless lesson today?" I saw Mr. Rivers just looking at me with shock he shook his head to get himself back into reality and he continued with teaching and I couldn't focus feeling guilty for something I didn't do to Matt it's his fault for feeling this way not mine. It's crazy how I act like an entire different person outside of school, here I'm confident, funny, and don't give any shits but outside of school I'm this emotional, abused, well known girl on twitter who went through a lot and now its continuing to get worse and worse each move I take.

It was very gloomy today so I chose to eat by myself in the library. "Eva!" I heard Elena call from the other side of the room, "shh!" one of the students said. "You shh." She said walking towards me. I didn't really want to get bothered by anybody that's why I went to the library in the first place. I had a lot of thinking to do and in order to get some best friend advice I would have to tell Elena about everything and I don't really want her to know anything. I'm not a big deal or even big but I'm a very small something and knowing Elena she would blow this way out of proportion. "Elena shut up." I whispered as she took a seat "why are you in here?" she asked. "Because I didn't want to be bothered." I said taking a bite of my saltine crackers. "Just crackers?" she asked "mhm." I hummed with my crackers still in my mouth she gave me a very worried look, "is you okay boo?" she asked "yeah." I said quietly looking down. I grabbed my stuff and started to head out the doors, "wait where are you going?" she ran up to me and grabbed my arm, "Elena I don't want to talk about it let me go." She let me go and I continued my way out the library, "you can't run away from everything Eve," I paused, "you're going to have to face them one day." She said.