Distance

Every step of the day we promised to live strong and we promised our selves to finish it wonderfully but we know that a single day can also change everything.

It has been 3 months since he confessed. 3 months of friendship. 3 months of challenges. We encountered so many of those. Some may say that 3 months is just a short span of time but for me it's not, anything can happen in just a single day. Anything small or even something that can bring a big change.

I was coloring that time. I was finishing my projectsvwhen he came and ask me if he can help. Of course I said yes besides I need to finish it faster.

It was only us in that corner. It was pure silence before he talked, he's asking me to join our barkada in the school they'll enter next year rather than staying with him im the school that was planned that he'll go to. I was surprised at first cause he said it seriously and he can't look at me.

"Why? You play boy wants to meet a new and hot girl there huh? Hahahaha" I said that with a fake laugh. Of course even though we're still not together. It kills me to see him pushing me away and with that thing in mind that kills me more.

He defended himself. "N..n..no. that's not it. I..i..its just..." his voice cracked. There's something wrong. I know there is.

"What's that?  You can tell me. Is there something wrong?" I'm always here to listen.

"I'm leaving."

"What?! Hahahhahaha Enough with the jokes john. Be serious please." That's me trying to convince myself that he's just joking. That he won't leave.

"No Luisa. It's not a joke. I'm serious this time. I'm going with my mom. My whole family is. Don't worry.. I'll come back"

My eyes started watering i know his too. I can see him. I can feel what he feel. You promised... you promised to not leave me but what happened? You told me you wont. You told me. You told me every single thing that made me believe that you wont leave me hanging and you wont break my heart? But what's happening? You're leaving me at the same time you're leaving my heart broken into pieces like glass that fell to the ground. I want to say all of these but I just can't. I cant speak. I think I swallowed my tongue.
I know that my tears are running down of my face. This can't be happening. This can't be.

"Please stop crying. I'll be back. After 5 years I'll be back. I think. We will still go home for vacation. I promise ill return."

I cant. It's killing me in pain. You promised... you did.

After months, the day all of us are preparing for already came.

"Who knew that after 13 months we're still together?" He said happily. Yeah it has been a year and a month after what happened but still it hurts a lot. June 14. 14. Two digits that will never be forgotten.

"Taba! We're already leaving later ha. Don't be a cry baby later. You'll look uglier. You don't want that to happen right?" I just nodded as a sign of yes. I can't say so many things at this time. I may crack up.

~*~

"So you can keep me inside the pocket of your ripped jeans holding me close until my eyes meet you will never be alone wait for me to come home..." I was awaken by his voice. He's singing. I looked around and we're here. We're finally here at his last destination in the Philippines. The airport.

"Oy taba! Gising na (wake up)! We're already here! See? It has a big sign there read if you wanna assure" he said and giggled. Even though he's already leaving he still manage to joke around. He really didn't want to see me in sorrow or even see a frown in my face. Nobody would do this when he left. Nobody could manage to make me smile. I dont know  what will happen to me after this day.