A Bad Boy's Shy Boy

Chapter 5: Heart Beat

I woke up to Grayson moving around a bunch . I felt his body and he was hot and sweaty.
"Grayson wake up!" I said shaking him.
He opened his eyes and started to breath heavily . He looked at me and then at his hands.
"Are you ok ?" I asked
"Y-yea . I'm fine ." He said sitting up an whipping his forehead .
"Were you havering a bad dream ?" I asked.
"Yea . It's weird I had the same dream the night before last night but this time it went further. What time is it?" He asked
"12:00." I said looking at my phone screen
"Your not going to school?" He asked me scratching his head an whipping his eyes
"No ." I said putting down my phone and stretching.
"What do you want to do then ?" He asked looking at me.
"We can go get smoothies ." I said shrugging
"Sure." He said smiling at me .
He had a cute smile. It was sweet and innocent. I got up and put a shirt on then walked out of the room to fix my hair in the bathroom .

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Grayson's P.O.V.
I got up and looked at myself in the mirror that was on Ethan's wall . My tank top had blue, black, and gray stripes on it. Ethan walked up behind me and I saw him in the mirror.
"Your zippers down ." He whispered in my ear and smiled before walking away.
I blushed a little then zipped up my zipper .
"Here wear this ." He said throwing me a shirt .
"Thanks . But I don't need this I can just keep what I have on on . I only wore it to bed last night. "I said looking at it.
"Just put it on ok." He said looking at me
"Why?" I asked
"Because ! Just do it !" He said in a mean but friendly way
I decided to just listen. He was acting strange and I didn't want things to go bad. It was a gray sweatshirt with a polka dot pocket on it with the tiny tag that said vans. I took a look at Ethan who was going through his closet then back at the shirt . I slid mine off and tossed it on the bed . Out the corner of my eye I saw Ethan put on a shirt and I quickly did too . But then he slid off his pants. I looked over at him and he had on these blue and green boxers. I bit my lip and went back to what I was doing before he noticed. I fixed up my shirt and took a seat waiting for him to be done .
"It's cold out side ." He said walking towards me with his phone in his hands ," 50 degrease . Maybe we should get coffee instead ." He said walking past me and stopping at his dresser
"I don't care were we go ." I said looking up at him
He opened up a drawer and pulled out a bright blue beanie . He slipped it on and closed the drawer . He walked accrossed the room and grabbed a pair of vans and put them on. I had forgotten to take my shoes off last night so they were still on.
"Alright let's go ." He said standing by the door and waiting for me .
I got up and stood by his side. We walked out the room and down the stairs . I could see the rooms now.The living room was neat but not neat. It was hard to explain. We walked out side and the cold wind hit me. I tucked my hands in the sweater and looked up at the bright sun . We walked off the porch and walked side by side . He looked at me and unexpectedly grabbed my hand and I didn't mind it. I smiled at him and he looked in front of him not smiling back . Why didn't he? Did he hate my smile ?! Was it a turn off? Oh no . My hands getting sweaty . How in the world is it getting sweaty in this weather ?! I pulled my hand away quickly . He looked down at my hand at my side and then back up. Was he happy I let go? Did he want to but he didn't want to make me feel bad ? Omg ! This is horrible !
"Calm down . I can feel your tenseness. Why you so tense ?" He asked stopping and turning to me.
"T-tense ?! What ?! I'm not tense !" I said quickly trying to avoid the topic
He grabbed both of my hands and pulled me in close . What is he doing? Omg ! Is he going to kiss me !? My breath probley smells like last nights dinner! Don't look at the eyes ! Don't ! Grayson stop it !
"Your tense . Your heart is beating faster than normal . Your nervous ." He said looking into my eyes
Oh god ! He thinks I'm nervous because I am ! How embarrassing ! Stop looking at me Ethan ! Just stop! I'm going to die ! I'm going to die right here ! Right now ! Right in his arms ! Oh help me now !
"I'm flattered ." He said smirking
What do you mean !!!!!! Can you hear my thoughts !? What's happing !? Im dying that's what ! I feel sick ! Oh god ! It's coming ! I'm ether going to pass out or throw up ! This is so embarrassing !
He smiled at me and I relaxed . I felt like a big bolder was lifted away.
"So you don't hate my smile ?" I asked
"Why would I hate your smile? It cute. Smile more often." He said smirking
"I don't know if I can do that ." I said getting sad
"For me ?" He asked giving me a pouty face
"For you I'll try." I said giving him a tiny smile
He let go of my hands and continued to walk. I was relived that was over .
"So . What's your favorite color ?" He asked out of the blue
"Um... Blue ." I said
"Mine is black and red . Ok what's your favorite tv show ?" He asked looking at me .
"Hm... That's a hard one . I don't really have one ."
"Neither do I . Have you ever kissed someone ?" He asked smirking
"Actually no ." I said a little embraced
"When did you tell your parents you were gay?" He asked not answering his question he asked me last
"About a mouth ago." I said quietly
"Two years ago. Do you have any siblings ?" He sled
Two years ago . Wow.
"No I don't have siblings ."
"Me neither . I'm assuming your parents didn't take you being gay well ." He said as we arched the coffee shop .
I ordered a hot chocolate and he got a coffee. We took a seat by the window inside the shop .
"No . They hate me and want me to go to hell." I said taking a sip of my drink
"I'm sorry . If it makes you feel any better when I came out my dad beat me so much he broke two of my bones over 1 month then moved out . My mom doesn't care but she still cares you know what I mean? Maybe not . But yea." He said looking out the window .
"I'm sorry to." I said talking another sip.
"Your bruises are fading ." He said looking at me then taking a drink of his coffee.
"Yea ." I said , " when I came out all my friends ditched me and my parents stopped talking to me . Sometimes my dad hits me or starts fights but that's all I get out of them . Right now I don't even know were they are but I wouldn't care if they were both dead ." I said looking down at the table .
"I've always wanted to get a dog ." He said changing the subject
"Aww! I want one of the small little ones like a tea cup poodle ! Put you probably want some thing big like a husky ." I said getting exited .
"Exactly ." He said smiling at me.
I laughed . We finished our drinks and got to know each other . We were closer . Closer than I ever was before with anyone . I felt like I could tell him anything . He  listened like no one else ever had . He cared about what I said . He cared about me . This time on our way he I grabbed his hand instead . I'm sure what this made us. Maybe we were just friends that didn't know whether or not we wanted to date or maybe we were already dating it just hadn't yet been stated.  We walked home hand in hand and talked more and more . I told him some of my deepest secrets and he didn't think I was a total freak . I liked how things were going . When we got to his house I sat on the coach and he sat next to me . He turned on the tv and we just sat in silence watching it for a while . I didn't notice that I started to fall asleep on him.
"I don't know if I'm going to regret asking this but why did you want me to wear your shirt so bad . Please don't get mad." I said in a sleepy voice and not opening my eyes
"I'm not mad and I never was . I wanted you to put on my shirt because I like it when you wear my clothes . You look cute." He said
"Really ? That's it ?" I asked opening my eyes and looking up at him
"Yes ." He said looking away from me
I closed my eyes again as put my head back down.
"By the way , I know you were looking when I changed my pants ." He whispered
I blushed a bit.
"Shhh. I'm listening to your heart beat." I whispered changing the subject