Sometimes our makeup is Happiness

Happiness isn't always real, but it can be. For some of us it is most often real, others, well sometimes we wear it like makeup.

Most of us don't want the others to know we are pained. We don't want to burden them with our problems. So we wear "happiness", but we don't want others to be pained or sad, so we try to make those around us happy.

We joke, we play, we make others happy, and we hold onto our pain and take ahold the pain of others and pull it away from them. We do things that we love to make others happy as well as do things we hate. We may hate ourselves most of the time, but it doesn't stop us from doing what we love and it doesn't stop us from helping others.

Helping others does make us happy. More often then you think. Every smile we see let's us know there is one less pained that day or week or month. We put all our energy to help others even though we need help ourselves, but that is how we help ourselves. By helping others.

You may look at someone and say they are the happiest go Lucky person you can think of, but something you may not have known is that that person could also be the most pained person in your life. But they do everything in their power to make you happy and keep your spirits lifted. We help ourselves by helping you.

Even though we are pained, we sometimes really are happy. And when we are it hurts when that happiness is gone, but for the sake of the lives around us we hold on for as long as we possibly can.

Some of us physically beat ourselves, some physically abused. Some of us mentally kill ourselves, some emotionally abused. We fight these invisible wars, but will always find the effort to try and help you and put a smile on the people around us. Our pains are not our concerns, but your pains are. We will throw ourselves under the bus for you, and sometimes, let you throw us under the bus.

We may not be happy, but we want you to be happy so that you may never bear any pain like ours.

Just remember, anyone who looks happy, could be in the worst pains in their lives. Thank your friends and the people around you for every smile they put on your face. Because they need it. They need the smiles. Like I said earlier, we help ourselves, by helping others.

Because sometimes happiness is our makeup.