The Pain Inside

The Pain Inside Chapter 1

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Chapter 1

To all the girls who have suffered hard times with someone that they truly had feelings for .... It's ok you'll find someone better, people come into our lives to teach us something and we never forget them for it...

So it has been a very hard move for me, leaving all my friends and teachers. I lived in that neighborhood for 13 years, but now it's time to move on as my dad says. My house is right next to the new school, if you look out my window you can see the number #221 in a window. I stare out my window and sigh, wondering what if the people here don't like me what if the teachers are mean. I feel the butterflies in my stomach all night, I toss and turn half the night, thinking about the outcome of all this. I check my phone multiple times that night looking at the texts from my boyfriend ( We'll just call him D ) the messages all read the same things, " You better not cheat on me!! Even though yo ass moved to a different school doesn't mean you can go and cheat on me!!!" I sigh and message him, " You should know me better than this,tell me one day I was unfaithful..." D is a really controlling guy and is very clingy and doesn't really trust me for some odd reasons I guess I don't plan on staying with him he is too clingy and stupid for me.

Next Morning- I wake up to the sound of knocking on my bedroom door, I roll my eyes and stumble out of bed. I open my door and see my mom smiling like a maniac, "Morning beautiful it's Tuesday so you know what that means your first day at B Junior High!!!!" I watch her as she jumps up and down, and just smile and close my door. I hit the back of my head on my door and slide down the door and sit on the floor. Huh why is she so happy about this, I hate school anyway so wtf why is it called B Junior High it should've been BS Junior High. I slowly stand up, and walk over to my closet and grab my clothes. I slip into my jeans, and pull on my black sleeve shirt. I look in the mirror and just think who is gonna like this ugly mess. I open my door and walk to my bathroom on the left side of the hallway, I turn on the bright ass lights, and just think why can't school be in the afternoon not start at 7:30. I brush my teeth and and rinse my mouth with mouthwash. I stand there and think am I the only person who uses mouthwash then rinses her mouth with water cause it's so hot. Haha I don't even know.

I walk out the bathroom and grab my phone **You have 5 texts from D** I read them and they're always the same bullshit... "Don't cheat on me, remember I love you, Why you always fall asleep on me, I feel like you're talking to someone else." Blah Blah Blah bullshit he's really getting on my nerves I'm just gonna ignore him today and think about what I should do about this dude. I look at the clock and it reads 6:55... Huh gotta leave sometime, I give my mom a kiss on the cheek and walk down the stairs, I open the front door and just stare for a few seconds and just breathe... I slowly open the screen door and step outside. Let's do this...

So this is my first chapter hope you all like it, if anyone has any questions feel free to ask and please no hate if you don't like it just don't read it. I'll try to update as often as I can so most likely once a week. I'm only 15 I make mistakes and I learn from them so I'm writing this for people who may have dealt with same thing or are going through the same stuff. Just remember people we're all people and we fuck up, and it's ok to say you did. Love you <3 <3 all please like and follow.