Be My Shield

Fear

November 18th, 2012
Indianapolis, Indiana
Bankers Life Fieldhouse
WWE Survivor Series
Jo's Point of View:

Today was my debut in the WWE. Before you ask, I am NOT a new diva, I am a performer before the show. More precise, a country music artist. This concert tonight will be my first major concert in front of soooo many people! Before this job, I mainly performed in bars in Nashville, Tennessee. No matter where I perform, I love the thrill of being on stage and performing.

Then, I saw that WWE were hosting auditions for an artist to perform before all major shows, including tonight. I auditioned with a song called, "I am Invincible."

Apparently, they loved me, so I was hired immediately after they saw my audition tape. So, here I am world. I take a deep breath and walk through the doors into the Bankers Life Fieldhouse, my first concert venue. This won't happen again.

And, I was stepping into the WWE world. Conceal the inner fangirl, and don't feel. Don't let them know.

I kept repeating those words to myself as I walked into catering. No one knew who I was, which was a good thing actually, and I tried so much not to fangirl. I am within walking distance of John Cena and soooo many other Superstars and Divas! I knew a lot of those people from watching them on TV...but surely, they all can't be like their in ring persona.

Quickly, before I got stopped, I grabbed a bottle of water. I walked out very quickly and started to look for Vince McMahon's office. He kinda is the chuck of this company, the Creator.

Did I forget to mention that I am a HUGE Supernatural fan? Yep, I haven't watched that show since....him. But, I still know my favorite lines by heart. Might as well say that I am a HUGE Divergent fan too. Yep: I am a fangirl, and I can't be controlled.

I walked up to the nearest crew member and said, "Hi! I'm the new performer and I am looking for Mr. McMahon's office. Do you know where that is?"

He smiled at me and replied, "Yes, I do. And are you a new Diva?"

I playfully laughed and replied, "Heck no! I am the performer that will amuse the crowds before the shows."

We started walking towards the office when he asked me my name. I introduced myself as Joanna Beth Winchester, or Jo for short.

The stage manager, Danny, then asked, "Why aren't you a Diva? I think you have enough training to conquer them."

"Why thank you for that complement, Danny. But I don't have any training what so ever!". I laughed at one of the many lies I would probably tell today.

Truth is, I was going to conquer this place along with my ex-boyfriend, John. No, NOT John Cena either. John is in the WWE now, vying for the championship. Before he made it big, we were together.

I thought we were never going to break up, but that all changed a long time ago. Thanks to his ego, he changed me, for the worse. I may not even be here right now if I didn't run.

But, the past is in the past. Danny then said, "Not even a little bit? You look like you belong with them."

"Nope, I only take off in the woods for a bit."

"Really? So, what is it like, taking off into the woods-". It was too little too late for me to stop. I kept going and talking until I ran into someone.

I am on the ground and all I hear is, "Watch where you're going next time. You don't want to mess with me and my brothers."

I look up and see that the guy talking has short hair, and resembles a lost puppy dog. The one on his right has two toned hair, while the one on his left has very long hair.

I replied, "I won't.". I realized that Danny took off running, maybe for security or something like that. I got up and tried to run away, but I couldn't. Puppy dog dude cornered me between some crates. He reminded me of John's 'bad days.'. The fear crep up on me.

Puppy dog dude yelled at me, "What did you say? And who are you?"

I closed my eyes and fell to my knees and braced for an impact. Either that, or this was all some crazy dream and it wasn't real.

Well, the pain in my knees told me that I was in reality, and the impact never came. I opened my eyes and saw Puppy Dog's blue eyes looking into my eyes. I said even quieter, "I won't. I am Joanna Beth Winchester, call me Jo. I am just the performer here.". I whispered to myself, "Please don't hurt me."

I closed my eyes once again, the fear consuming me from the inside out.