Just One Big Game

Chapter 1

She kissed me. I could taste the alcohol on her lips. I pulled away.

"You're drunk." I whispered, upset. She shook her head at my comment.

"Not drunk, just buzzed." she whispered back before kissing me again. As if she'd know, she barely drinks. I just let her lips attack mine, I was weak. I had no words to speak about her behavior, this was definitely not how she normally acted.

"What if Mason comes home?" I asked her.

"Then we'll go to my room." she said before standing up and grabbing my hand.

"Anna." I stopped, and pulled her back over to me. I stood up. "Don't you think this all a bit..." I stared at her face, which held the expression of not really giving a fuck. "I don't know...fast." I finally spit out. She shook her head.

"No, not really." She tells me. I bit the inside of my cheek. "If you don't want this, you don't have to." She said.

"No!" I said suddenly. "I, no I really want you- I mean, this, I really want this." I could feel my cheeks warming up. "I..uh..." And she kissed me, again. I wasn't too sure about what I should do, besides kiss back. In the middle of all this, there is a knock at the door. In some way I was happy that things didn't go too far, but on the other hand, I was disappointed. Anna pulled away upset, ready to scream at whoever was knocking at the door. I plopped down on the couch, trying to think. The one time that it was my chance to have sex with her, I blow it. I literally could be in her right now, but instead I sit moping on her couch.

"Sorry, A, I forgot my house key. Oh hey Blake." Mason, Anna's roommate, said walking into the living room.

"I'm going to take a shower..." Anna said in a quiet voice, looking at me. Me and Mason just nodded.

"Have fun." Mason said smiling idiotically. I sighed, starring at the T.V. I was nervous for some reason, as if Mason was going to find out about me and Anna and this random make-out session.

I stayed a little longer, then suddenly blurted out, "I think I'm going to go home." I said, still starring at the T.V.

"Oh..okay." Mason said. I stood up and walked over to the door and grabbed my keys from the small table.

"Bye." I quickly said before escaping into the warm atmosphere of Arizona. I trotted down the steps and went to my car, opening the door and getting in. I sat there a couple seconds, waiting. Waiting for me to collect my thoughts on what had just happened. I finally exit the parking lot and start to drive towards my house, ready to get into my bed and lay there alone in self pity.

That's exactly what I do, I get home, rid myself of my clothes and lay in my bed alone.

'You wouldn't be alone if you went with it' I think to myself, the only thing I can talk to right now is myself. I lay in darkness a little longer, till I hear a faint buzzing, and a dim light coming from my pants pocket, my phone. I scramble towards it, seeing Anna's beautiful face on my screen, so I answer, of course.

"Hello?" I asked as if I didn't know who it was, my voice raspy and dry.

"Hey...." Anna said quietly, "Mason told me you decided to leave."

"Yeah..." was all I said. I was too distracted to sleep, or even talk, the scenes just kept replaying in my head again and again.

"....Did I scare you?" She asked. I imagined her laying in her bed, playing with the knitted blanket her grandmother had made for her, as she waited anxiously for my answer.

"Not at all." I said "just startled." We didn't say anything after that, and I wandered if she (or myself) had hung up one another, "Are you there?" I asked, sleep was slowly taking me, for I could hear my voice getting deeper and my eyelids feeling awfully heavy.

"Yeah, I'm here." She whispered, and it got quiet again.

"If I fall asleep....just hang up..." I told her.

"Same." she told me. I could hear her yawning. "Goodnight Blake." she whispered, "I love you." I felt my heart swell and my cheeks become warm.

"I love you too..." I waited, and then felt awkward. "Goodnight." I whispered just before hanging up.