Ive read our past conversation. It just reminds me of my not so good reaction towards your good intention and love for me. I deserved living without you. And you deserved being happy with someone else. There was a time that i told you that someday you'll thank me for hurting you and i think, you may now thank me, coz you've found the girl who will love you back, the same love that your willing to give. I'm happy for you. Happier than i expected. Everytime they ask me if i'm regretting hurting you, i would always say yes, hurting you was the most foolish thing that i've done. But until now, i don't have the confidence to say that you'll be happier if we're still together. I do believe,that she can make you happier, more than i can do. I just can't deny that until now, i am regretting everything that i've said and done to you. I wish we could retain the friendship that we had, but for some unknown reason, even saying hi/hello is hard for us to do. Years pass by, i don't even remember how we text each other before, even our endearment, but the memories that we had still remains in my heart. I just want to say how are you. Tell you stories after my graduation,my experience,the people i've met, lesson in life that i've learn. I just want to share it with you. Coz you play a big part in my decision of being independent. I chose to be away from you, for us to know if we're really for each other, by living our life separately and maybe after years of living separately we will find each other again,and we will be mature enough to take the next chapter of our life. But again, we lived our life separately and literally, we really grown apart. You found your girl and i achieve my dreams. Honestly, i miss you. Sharing my thoughts, decisions and problems with you. I miss it. Five years. Five long years had passed. Still,i regret hurting you. But i'm praying, that someday, the friendship that you asked me after our break up and the friendship that i'm praying now, will happen. I hope and pray to see and talk to you soon. Thank you for everything.
-hazel
