A Bad Boy's Shy Boy

Chapter 6: Perfect

Back in school means back to bullying. I went home after that night I fell asleep with Ethan on the coach. My parents were back from who knows were and they had been fighting. Some nights I got in between them and anded up getting hurt. I didn't care anymore. Everyday I would get to see Ethan at school and he made everything better. He was a part of me. Ethan never really expressed his feelings and I never really knew how he felt. We never really talked about it. I decided today was the day. The day when I told him exactly how I felt. I got out of bed and hopped in the shower. I got out , fixed my hair, and put on my clothes . I went downstairs and out the door before my dad could say anything to me. I walked quickly to school so I could get there before Ethan . I went to his locker.
"Waiting for your boyfriend?" A boy asked walking past
"Just shut up ok?! Leave me alone!" I said speaking up
"Whatever gay boy." He said walking away
I waited some more.
"What are you doing here so early?" Ethan asked walking up to me with a smile on his face
"I wanted to tell you something ." I said
Watching him open his locker
"What is it?" He asked not looking at me
"This is important." I said
"Ok go ahead." He said looking up for a second then back at his locker
"Ethan !" I said getting mad because he wasn't paying attention
"What?!" He said looking at me with wide eyes
"Please I need to tell you something !" I said looking at him with serious eyes
"Tell me later . When were not in school" he said closing his locker and walking away
Wtf! Why would he do that ? What was wrong with him? He was acting different. He would never do that to me , right?
I walked off and went to my locker. I grabbed my stuff and went  to class. After school I waited for Ethan to come outside. He came out with someone. I had never really seen him before . Ethan was smiling and talking to him then he saw me. His expression changed from happy to like a sad mad nervous face. I couldn't explain it. They walked up to me and I looked at Ethan then his friend.
"Hey what did you need to tell me?" He asked scratching his head
"Oh ...um... Never mind." I said shaking my head and looking away from his eyes
"Come on we have to go dude!" The guy said walking away
"I'm sorry ." He said in almost a whisper before running to catchup with his friend
"It's not ok." I said quietly under my breath as I looked off to the side and at the ground. I slowly started to walk home. I decided I didn't want to go home and face my dad so I went to my safe place. The shack at the beach way up where no one notices you. I took a seat on the wood and watched the ocean. I laid down on my side and relaxed. If anyone were to see me they would probably think I was homeless but I didn't care. I laid there walked around the beach for a while. I stayed there for at last 2 hours and it was 6:00. I decided since I had nothing better to do so I started to walk home. My dad didn't say a word to me when I walked in. I went up to my room and threw myself on my bed. I yelled into my sheets then got up and found the thing closest to me, in this case an old glass bottle that used to be filled with coca cola, and chucked it at the wall. It shuddered and I sat back down on my bed and starred at it. It was broken like my heart. Sharp at the ends and smooth on the surface. That night u didn't sleep. I just sat there starting at the ceiling. I never did clean up the glass at the corner of the room.
Bink bink
I herd the sounds at my window. What's going on? I laid on my bed for a few more minutes thinking it would stop but it kept coming about every 10 seconds. I finally got up and peeked out the blinds. There was a figure standing there and I jumped back. My heart stopped and my body got cold. I took a breath and looked back out. Ethan. I recognized his dark black hair and sense of clothing. I pulled the string to the blinds. I slid my shining fingers under the window and pushed up.
"What in the hell are you doing here?!" I whisper yelled due to the fact that it was 2:00 am
"I couldn't going to sleep knowing that I hurt you." He yelled
"You don't know that you hurt me! M-maybe I just don't care anymore ! Maybe I've move on!" I said putting on my poker face
"I'll just leave then. Goodnight Grayson." He said pretending to walk away
"N-no! No_dont go." I said waving my hands for him to stop
"What did you need to tell me Grayson. I'm sorry I ignored you it's just that... Never mind ! Just tell me what you needed to say." He said walking back.
"Wh-what? It's just that what?" I asked
"Nothing." He said
"Ok well ... I know that we really don't talk about how we feel really and I want to know were we stand. I really like you." I said quietly but loud enough for him to hear from where he was
"The thing is I really like you too and I was afraid that you were going to tell me you loved me and I wasn't ready for that at first but now I'm prepared for it. I want to tell you I love you and were we stand right now is not were I want us to be. I want us to be boyfriend a-and boyfriend. If you feel like were going to fast I get it but Grayson Vince, I love you." He said pouring his heart out
I started to tear up at his words and the fact that he came here at 2:00 in the morning just so he could tell me that. But the thing is I wasn't sure how I felt about him. This is all new to me.
"I don't know how to love. I don't know what it means. What it is. How to fall in love . " I yelled out the window with my words trembling as the tears fill the corner of my eyes .
"Love. It-its when you can't stop thinking about someone . When you know that you will be there when they are hurting . You'll be there when they need a hand to hold. You'll be there when they just want to be with you . Love just happens . I'll be your guide. Let me show you what love feels like." He yelled back
He held out his arms shortly after I didn't say anything. I ran out my room leaving the window open . I ran down the stairs and out the front door with no shoes. I ran to the side of the house and held out my arms as I ran when I saw him. I jumped into him and he held me tightly. The tears streamed down my face but I didn't cry.
"I never thought I would ever hear something like that come out if your mouth." I said pulling away and looking into his eyes with my hands on his shoulders and his on my hips
"It's true." He said smiling
I got lost in his eyes again but this time it was a good thing. His smile faded away and mine formed. We held a stare for a while until he placed his lips on mine. I closed my eyes and moved my lips with his. His lips were soft . The sounds of the night creeped through my eyes as the kiss continued. He got a tighter grip on my hips and I wrapped  my arms around his neck bringing me closer to him. His kiss was smoother and more gentle than I thought it would be. I pulled away and looked into his eyes that he opened when I opened mine. I couldn't help but smile. It was my first kiss with a boy. I've kissed two girls before but there didn't really mean anything. My first boy kiss was with a perfect guy at a weird but perfect time and place. I would remember this moment forever wether we stayed together or not. It was meant to be perfect and that's all it was