Colors Drained

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I sat down in my browsing position pulling my laptop onto my lap, I opened it and my wallpaper immediately popped up, I smiled slightly at the picture. It was a picture of my idol Phil Lester, he was smiling his perfect cute smile with his beautiful blue eyes sparkling. Then I frowned remembering who he was smiling at, he was smiling at his boyfriend Charlie but I quickly brushed off the thought and pulled up my browser logging onto tumblr in one tab, youtube in another, and twitter in the third one. First I went on tumblr, I looked through which people liked and reblogged my posts when I noticed the notification "amazingphil reblogged your post" after that there was another one "amazingphil started following you", I squealed and started grinning like crazy. I quickly pulled up skype and dialed my friends Chris who was a small youtuber just like me, he picked up, his face appeared on my screen "Chris Chris Chris!" I said exitedly as I squealed again, he chuckled and said "Yes, that's my name, it better be urgent because I'm supposed to be spending time with my lil sis and I have 5 minutes so go on"he said and I took in a deep breath "Guesswhojustrebloggedmypostandfollowedmeontumblr" I said extremely quickly exhaling the air left in my lungs, Chris looked up at me "Who followed you and reblogged your post? Some celebrity or?" I clapped my hands exitedly "Phil did, Phil Lester" I beamed my dimples showing clearly, Chris squealed "I ship it, ship it, Dil? Phan? Phian? Danil?"he chuckled at the end and I looked at him "Phan sounds amazing" I said my cheeks turning a shade of pink and Chris giggled at me "Well, good luck with Phan and I have to go, bye see you at school tomorrow" and hung up. I sat on my bed for a while smiling like an idiot, when I got back to my senses I decided that I should check twitter as well, I pulled my browser back up and went on twitter instead of tumbr.

A few hours later I was on my phone on Instagram and I was aimlessly scrolling through #amazingphil when I saw a Phil edit, it was small bits and pieces of Phil's videos where he's smiling or laughing with "Can't help falling in love' by Twenty One Pilots as background music and then it turned to all his collabs with Charlie and how much brighter he smiles when he's with Charlie  to the song "Kiss me" by Ed Sheeran, I frowned and shut my phone off. I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth to hold back my tears but I obviously failed so I took my second pillow from its place and hugged it, my salty tears left trails down my cheeks as the awful thoughts flooded my mind, I absolutely hated having a crush on someone who will never return the feeling. The chain of awful thoughts was snapped when my phone chimed signaling a notification, I picked it up and looked at the screen, I smiled fondly at the screen after reading the notification. I stood up and grabbed my ear phones plugging them into my phone and shoving them in my ears as I sat back down on my bed and swiped right on the notification and put i my password to unlock my phone. The YouTube app pulled up on my screen starting to play AmazingPhil's new video smiling slightly as my ears filled with his deeply northern accent and I smiled. Phil was just talking about how VidCon is starting up soon and he'll probably be there when I heard my door open and  I paused the video looking up from my screen as I clicked the power button and my phone turned off, I pulled out one earbud and faced my little brother Marcus "Dan, mum's calling you down for dinner and she said she has an early birthday present for you" he said and turned around closing the door behind himself and going down the stairs.  I sighed, stood up and stretched with my back cracking a few times and walked over to my bedroom door opening it and trotted down the stairs. I saw my mum setting down the plates smiling and chit chatting with my little brother, I smiled at the picture and walked over "Can I help with anything?" I asked and my mum looked at me "Nope, not really just sit down along with your brother, thanks Dan" she smiled ruffling my already curling hair.

After dinner my mum said not to leave because she had something to say, I sighed and kept sitting at the table. "Dan," she turned to me and gave me an envelope that just said 'To: Dan, happy birthday! From: Mum' I opened it and took up a paper which was folded in two, I unfolded the paper and felt tears flow down my face for the second time today this time being from joy, it was a ticket that said "You are invited to VidCon June 23-25". I leaped up from my seat and dropped my chair back and ran over to my mum giving her a big fat kiss on the cheek and hugged her still holding the ticket "Thank you thank thank you!" I squealed and my mum just smiled "You're welcome, now go, tell your internet best friend about it" she chuckled and ruffled my  now completely curly hair again, I nodded and ran up the stairs. I quickly unlocked my phone and opened up the twitter app typing a quick tweet which read "Hey, @amazingphil are you going to VidCon this year?" I re-read the tweet before pressing the tweet button. I went back to watching his new video, when I finished it I went back to instagram and refreshed my feed and squealed yet again, I read a lot of notifications saying people liked my recent video edit and commenting on it but a couple of notifications popped out at me "amazingphil liked your video." "amazingphil commented:"This is so cute, you make such good edits. Aww, much love from me :))" and the last one that made me the happiest out of all three "amazingphil started following you." I gasped and screenshotted it. After I replied to comments thanking them on the compliments about my edits I quickly cropped cropped my screenshot to fit the like, comment and follow because the new Instagram update could crop more than to a square. I existed instagram and went on twitter again noticing Phil replied to my tweet saying he was going and I smiled contently. I opened my DMs and noticed I was being flooded with them I opened the one from my internet best friend Ellie, she was just messaging me about how well she spent the day with her girlfriend knowing I would read them later. I read her message, they were all about how her and Lillian went to the beach then got ice cream and after went home and cuddled, I lowkey wished that that would be Phil and I but he's a celebrity with almost a million subscribers and I'm just another nobody that is just another fan. I sighed and fell back on my bed, I messaged Ellie about the VidCon ticket not waiting for a reply I put my phone to charge and went to sleep even though it was only 9 pm.