this war will end (mb story)

please dont do this

"Please" I said "why are u doing this" I could feel the tears flowing down my face it was something I couldn't control why would he do this to me I should know by now that he will never stop. I felt barren like no one can save me I know no one can save me
"Shut up"he said to me I could hear his rough,hard voice. bare ..so bare that every time he spoke I would flinch in fear. my tears escaping from my eyes as if my soul has been broken a million times my mom is gone she died 2 years ago and ever since then I've been beaten by my father .my own blood he would leave bruises and scares on my body that still remained,he didn't hit me with just belts and sticks but also with his hands and switches that I had to pick out. I sat on the floor crying hoping, wishing he would say go away "go upstairs now!!"he yelled but,when I tried to move it felt like every bone in my body had failed me ...had given out. I got up with all my might I got up and ran to my room more like limped but the crazy thing is I have a nice house a nice room with a big bed,dressers,and curtains and windows from which the light reflects off of .sometimes I stare out the window just to day dream for hours without moving an inch.