Confessions Of A Sex Addict(Trey Songz Story)

Chapter 8

••Tia POV••

"Trey!! Did you make Jadens bottle like I asked??"

YUP I had my baby. Finally. But that was four months ago. My baby so adorable actually. He has dimples just like my brother and light eyes just like my dad.
Right now I'm trying to get him to go to sleep so me and trey can get some sleep. He always keeps us up and right now it's 12:00 AM and I'm bout to crash and burn.

Trey walked in looking sleepy shaking a baby bottle.

"Listen little nigga, you really gon have to go the fuck to sleep. Some of us have work."

Jaden looked up and Trey and smiled when he gave me the bottle.
Every time Jaden is crying I can never silence him, only Trey can. I guess my own son hates me.
My son is a real blessing, he's my world, nobody really understands the love a mother has until they have a child of their own.
I felt treys eyes on me as I rocked him and fed him a bottle, I usually do this and he falls asleep in about five minutes.
Trey stared for a minuet before slowly walking out the room trying not to make noise.

Thinking back on my pregnancy, I feel like I've taken Trey for granted, I feel like I could have repaid him in some type of non-sexual way. Through this whole thing he's really been there and I just have to thank him. I think I will because I just recently got back into school, studying clinical psychology, and I currently have two jobs, one I work easy hours on the weekends, and the other through the week as an internship as part of my graduation requirements. They pay pretty good and I'm currently looking for an apartment, I found one not to far from here, closer to Jadens house, 3 bedrooms, two bathrooms, furnished, rent is like 350$ a month I think I can do it for me and Jaden alone it will be good. I know I been a real burden on Trey and I think I've over stayed my welcome.

Jaden was finally closing his eyes half way through his bottle, I laid him down in his crib easily so I wouldn't wake him. I stepped back and admired him, "perfect" I whispered.
I walked out the room and closed the door slightly before walking to Treys room.

"Hey." He said calmly looking up from his phone.

"Hey.. Can we talk?"
Trey looked up at me curiously and put his phone down. He nodded slowly and kept his eyes on me as I walked and sat next to him on his bed.

"I found an apartment. And I'm gonna move in next week."
My voice trailed off a little as I watched his facial expression change. He went from curiosity to almost sadness.

"Is that what you want?"

"Yeah, I can start life finally, free, independent."

I don't want her to leave. Trey thought, but I don't want to hold her back. I wish she would stay.

"Well... Uhm..." I can tell Trey didn't know what to say, he kinda looked around the room like he was in thought about it.

"Good luck." He said dryly not looking at me.

"That's it? Just good luck?" I asked trying to read his almost expressionless expression

"yep." He directed his attention back to the phone letting me know the conversation was over.. Damn, I guess he really don't care if I leave or not huh?? Well if that's the case I can leave tomorrow. I can have my stuff packed and leave.. Just me and Jaden.. I don't want to be here where I'm not wanted.

"Wow. Alright. I'm leaving tomorrow then."
He looked up at me and sighed
"Why?" He asked slowly getting up

"I need my own place. And you obviously don't want me here."

"Shut up, yes I do. Tia. I really developed feelings for you over these few months. I understand that you want to be independent and stuff but I really don't want you to get your own place. I barley want you to work but you seem to like it."

I remember him telling me about how he felt about me the first time I tried to tell him I was leaving. The thing is, I like him a lot, but I don't know if I can trust him, he seems stuck in his ways. I mean yea we open up to each other and tell eachother everything but snakes still don't hiss.
I want to trust him really. But I think it's gonna be hard. I trust him enough to have stayed here and take care of me and my baby. But relationship wise? No.

"I understand trey. But I don't know if your relationship ready."
He stared at me blankly for around 5 seconds before walking past me out the room.
I just watched him as he grabbed his keys and eventually left.
I'm so confused at this point. It's like 12 AM where the fuck is he going? Taco Bell??

I just shook my head and went to go check on Jaden. He should sleep until like 3 and be up again. And they say sleek when the baby sleeps. I didn't want to take a shower because I didn't know if Jaden would wake up or not, so I just stripped to my underwear and laid down.
I was overly bored so I ended up texting Alisha, I knew she wasn't sleep cuz she probably up at a party or something

Lishaa- well where is trey?
Me- shit I don't know, he left a while ago when I told him I wanted to move out
Lishaa- well why do you wanna move out??
Me- because I don't want to depend on him any more. I'm grown I can take care of my self. He helped me in a time of need but I think I've over stayed my welcome
Lishaa- Tia, you don't understand trey, he isn't normal, he has a sexual addiction, he has depression, so sex is the only way he handles that. He swore to himself he wasn't gonna get married or fall in love ever again after his son died. So when he breaks that promise and let's you in and cares for you, that real big, if you knew him like the rest of us you would know you make him better. We really never seen him like this. So by you telling him that Your leaving, he can't handle that.

Honestly. Her texts made me want to cry. I am really feelin trey but trusting is so hard. I want to say I love him, but I guess we never thought about going there. And sitting here in his bed without knowing where he is kinda hurts because I wanna know if he's okay.
I tried calling and texting but the phone went straight to voice mail. I couldn't even sleep man.
And Jaden was sleep so I couldn't talk to him.

••6 hours later••

I been up ever since trey left. Jaden woke up at 3, and went back to sleep. And now the sun was coming up. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were blood red and my body felt like just shutting down.
I opened the curtains in his room and stared at the sky, it was beautifully pink and blue but it was kinda annoying because I wasn't asleep.
Looking down at the block I saw cars coming in and out and people walking to get their paper.
I really didn't have time to wait around for him all day. The landlord said to get back to him before 12 today and I don't see why I can't move in today.
I thought about how I was gonna get all my stuff over there so I just called Kayla and Alisha to see if they would help.
They told me they would be here around 8, and to me it didn't matter if Trey was home or not. I was leaving.
I started packing mine and Jadens stuff, it took a lot out of me, being here with trey was one of the best things that could have happened to me. He helped bring my son into the world, he helped keep me in this world, he's such a great person. But he should carry on with his life the way it was before me.

***

"Are you sure about doing this?" Kayla asked walking past me with a bag.

"Yes, I think so.. Do you think he will be upset?"

"I don't know. But he won't like coming home and you not here."

I took a deep breath and thought. I have to go any way...

After we loaded my car I put Jaden in his car seat.
"Thanks so much guys, I'm not going far though, we still gon be together all the time."

"Yeah we know, it's just gon be a little weird coming here and not seeing you."
I hugged them both and said my good byes and watched them drive off.

Driving away from the house, for the first time i was alone but not lonely. I was finally free from Ryan, and doing what I wanted to do all my life. Even though I was leaving behind a big piece of me, I didn't think a lot about it. Because I love trey.... I love him and if it's meant to be, it will find its way.