"I don't wanna fall for him one more time." i sigh as i grab my jacket wearing it
"Thank you for the dinner and sorry for ruining it." i told Trisha and made my way to the door not giving her a chance to even reply. the December cold air greeting me making me shiver as i opened the door, i heard footsteps behind me.
Chace.
i looked behind me and Chace was there behind me with that blank expressions, we walked out without any word said, once we stepped into our house and closed the door, i threw my body into his arms, now i can cry, i can be myself, i can let it all out without being scared of being judged or anything .
"it hurt Chace, it hurt too much, i swear this wasn't what i asked for Christmas, why the hell did they return?" i sobbed into his chest, i felt his chin resting on top of my head and he took deep breath then let it out in a heavy sigh, with his hand rubbing circles over my back, i let my heart out for this man.
im weak, im weaker than i can ever be, Love is a torture, not just when you fall and hit the hard ground hard -when you find no one to catch you- when you get up, feel your bones broken, heart broken, Pride broken, Once you stepped in through the Love's door, there is no way out, even if you made it out alive, you wont go out without a squeeze in the heart, slap on the face or stab on the back and heart. you'd go out with half a heart, that's what i am right now, im half a heart, and this half heart is full of scars.
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I woke up next morning with the events playing through my head which caused a big deadly headache, I sit up and opened the curtains looking out of the window, the world is dressed in white, also there is 2 children running , jumping on their father's arms hugging and smiling from ear to ear. I smiled and sighed
I miss my dad.
*flashback starts*
my tiny hands roamed around his black and gray hair, looking into his brown eyes, his large hands wrapped around my waist after he adjusted my skirt and pulled the back of my shirt inside of the skirt.
"never let the tail out, little duck." dad smiled at me and I smiled genuinely, loving the way he hold me making me feel warm.
I saw a bus stands in front of our house and a very annoying voice of a horn came out of the bus, I saw daddy's eyes fill with sadness, soft sobs escaping mommy's mouth,
why is she crying?
dad hugged me and tight that i felt the air being sucked out of my lungs, I grabbed his shoulders and half chocked,
he let go after a short while and reached for his bag handing me a teddy bear. "look princess, if you ever needed me, talk to this teddy, im right inside of it hearing everything you say, I'll always be by your side no matter what" he kissed my forehead and i took the teddy bear happily,
he kissed my mouth and I giggled covering my mouth with my hand, he stood up and walked to mommy, he hugged her so tight and she just kept crying, i looked at the bus again and the fat old man sitting behind the steering wheel lose his patient and pressed the annoying horn one more time
daddy kissed mommy on the mouth as she cried and i kept watching them with my lips parting while watching their mouths, after he pull back he moved to the bus and i ran after him "Daddy! where are you going?"
"to save the country honey."
"like super man?" i tilt my head looking at him "yep." he smiled and i smile widely excited as i watch him getting in the bus
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Internal Conflict.
FanfictionI wrapped my arms around his neck, staring at his eyes as my heart squeezed itself his arms were around my waist swaying in a rhythm with the beat he has asked for this dance, but we were silent, eyes were screaming but tongues were tied. he gave me...
