i thought you loved me

its over sawyer

"amber please listen shes not who you think she is." sawyer stands across the island from me "then who the hell is she you told her you love her." tears spill from me eyes. " you know what i don't want to hear it I'm leaving." i step back from the island and walk around it. " amber don't do this i love you why would i let you look on my phone if i didn't." he yells. " then why were they in the deleted section huh why look sawyer the guy i met in freshman year is not the man standing in front of me today they guy i fell in love with was sweet nice and actually cared about my fillings." spit back in his face. i see tears roll down his cheeks 'if he actually cared he wouldn't do this to me.' i walk up stairs i start to pack. once i finish i see sawyer no were. i leave a note and my engagement ring on the island the note saying " sawyer - i love you with all my heart i know that we will have fights but this is more. I thought that you were still my high school sweetheart but you change and not for the better. i hope you live life to the fullest. -princess'

the next thing i know is I'm gone walking the lonely streets of denver. i pull my suit case along with me to were ever im headed. i cant go home i moved her with sawyer and my parents live in Georgia. i reach a star bucks and head inside were its nice and warm unlike outside were the November wind whips and tickles my skin. "hi welcome to Starbucks what can i get for you miss." the guy at the counter asks as i walk up." a hot chocolate please." i ask pulling out my wallet."coming up for the beautiful girl." i smile at his comment. " my names 9 by the way." i look at the man before me." 9 what kind of a name is that." he chuckles at my comment i smile wider." me and my siblings were named after the day we were born so i was born on the ninth my older sister was born on the 6 and my baby brother was born on the 7." he leans on the counter getting closer good thing there is like no one here. i here the door open from behind me but i don't pay much attention to it.

" amber i was looking every where for you are you okay amber please." damn its sawyer i turn to see a worried look on his face. " amber please say something." he whispers tacking a step forward. " sawyer im fine i just im upset i dont know who this becca girl is and you said nothing was going on but you lied to me sawyer like i said earlier you have changed were was the sawyer that never keep something form me. sawyer i dont know what to do i thought you loved me but i was wrong." tears spill over my eyelids. sawyer takes me in his arms he leans down  and whispers in my ear. " if you would have let me explain who she is i would have said she is my younger sister my mom put in foster care im not supost to have contact with her but i do. im so sorry amber and i do love my sister and you princess." he plants a kiss on my forehead." amber your burning up what the hell." he looks in my eyes. now that he mentions it i am strangely cold.

" sawyer this is your girl." it came from 9. " impressive i thought you were with cammie." i laugh " cammie is my middle  name." i smile as his face turns to an o shape."dude when dose your shift end cause you 6 and 7 can come over you know we still have a few things to talk about." sawyer turns his attention to 9." will be there at 11 now go take care of your girly there." he nods in my direction.

i get my hot chocolate and is now in our Chevy silverado. take long sips of m sweet drink that warms my insides. i set in the cupholder and let out a sneeze. "baby how are you filling." sawyer asks making a right hand turn to get to our little house. " i could be better i mean i dont fill to bad but i do fill sick. oh and i applied to regis university  they havent sent my letter yet though i hope i get in." i smile at him and he returns it. " thats grate baby doll i have some newsfrom home and alexs is going to be a father and your mom is getting the help she needs sence you grandpa and all but i got my accepted letter to Regis university." A wide smile appears on my face. We finally pull up to the blue two bedroom one bathroom house. I get out quickly well sawyer grabs my suit case. I unlocked the door and step in the nice warm house I quickly head to our room I take off my clothes and get changed in my warm winter pj. I go to the bathroom I do my business the wash my hands and face then I put my hair in a pony tail. I head to the living room and to my surprise sawyer is watching teen wolf. I try my best not to laugh. But I fail. He turns to face me. Then he pats the coach. I go to sit when he pulls to his lap the he lays down with me on top of him. I snuggle into his chest breathing in his sent the sent of roses and raspberrys. Sawyer pulls a blanket on top of us as I flip through the channels on the tv screen. I finally settle on CSI Miami. About and hour or two latter sawyer a phone starts to ring. He reaches over and answers it " hello.......... Yeah........ Ok I can............. 6 pm tomorrow then.......ok talk to you then.......bye." He sets his phone down with a heavy sigh." Sawyer what's wrong." I ask lifting my head from his chest." Oh yeah I just have to pick up my sister tomorrow that's all she will be staying with us tell she gets adopted or the is another foster family." He kisses my forehead. I get up from on top of him. And pause the episode of CSI. He sits up and pulls me to him. He kisses my softly. Then it turns to a full blown make out session. My hands end up in his hair. His hands are up my shirt so his hands are resting on my stomach. He pushes me down so he's on top of me but not crushing me. My hands travel down from his hair to his torso he sits up the pulls his shirt off. I run my hands down his abs. He moans in my mouth as his tongue roams my mouth freely. Minutes later he pulls my top off. He starts to kiss my neck then caller bone then my chest. He knows I'm not comfortable with you know have sex so instead he starts to kiss my stomach. Then he is back to my mouth. The make out for another hour before my phone starts to ring I pull back and dig my phone out of my pocket." Hello is this Amber Anderson." The males voice ask on the other side of the phone. " yes who is this." I ask with a shaky breath. " miss Anderson we have news on your father we believe we found him he lives in France and he wants to meat with you." My breath hitches in my throat." Oh my god when and were how is that even possible what's his name who is he he live were." I start to ramble when the males voice on the other side cuts me off." Miss you plane ticket is payed for and you will be leaving in two weeks we will contact you with any further details in a few days good night miss" I start to cry." Thank you thank you I will be waiting bye." Once I hang up the phone I start to sob." Baby what's wrong is every thing ok talk to me baby." Sawyer pulls my into a tight embrace." They found him sawyer they found my dad and he want to met me sawyer." I cry harder hearing that they found my daddy I never new him I grew up with my mom grandma and grandpa then my sister Katie." That's grate Amber. I'm so happy for you." Sawyer holds my tighter. About 15 minutes pass and all my tears are dry. I put my shirt same with sawyer. We sit in silence for a few minutes before the doorbell goes off. Sawyer gets up and walks to the door moments later four people come into the living room I recognize 9 and sawyer but the rest I never seen before." Amber this is 6 and 7." Sawyer points to a girl that looks in her mid 20s the a boy who looks no younger than 16. " hi guys I'm Amber canniest Anderson soon to be black. Speaking of which where's my ring I set on the counter but I didn't see there sawyer where's my ring." I ask turning to face sawyer. He pulls it out of his pocket." Here." He steps over to me and hands me it I slip it on. And hold it to my chest." Hay Amber do you mind getting some snacks for use we have a few things to talk about and I am hunger is that ok." Sawyer ask with a boyish smile. " I don't mind I will be right back." I get up and walk to the kitchen to pull out some chips and crackers the some skittles and m&ms I walk back to the living room with the snacks and set them down on the coffee table." I will be upstairs if you need me." I say quickly the walk upstairs to our room I walk over to the bed and lay down. I pull out my phone and start to listen to pandora and read watt pad the story I'm currently reading is the bad boy stole my bra.

About two hours have past and now it's 1 am. I'm currently watching the Harry Potter marathon that plays every night on one of the channels. I get a text from my mom
' hay sweetie just wanted to see how you were doing. '

I don't reply because I don't know what to say and she most likely mows the time over here so she will probably chew my ear off for being up so early. A few moments later a tired sawyer stumbles into the room he flops down on the bed. He groans leaning on his elbows." What did you guys talk about." I ask sawyer well he gets up to change he takes off his pants and shirt and climbs into bed. " we talk about getting my sister back." He mumbles well putting his head into my lap." Oh well I think we both need some sleep come on move so I can sleep." He moves off my lap and faces my direction. I move so I'm laying down next to him I snuggle into his arms and we both drift of into the welcoming arms of sleep