Finding Me

Chapter 1: Carter

My name is Carter. I am a orphan. My mother died 5 years ago when I was ten. She was in a fatal car crash on December, 24, 2010. After that I had my dad but that wasn't enough... That year we didn't have Christmas. There was no point in celebrating without the one person who brought me and my father pure happiness. We didn't have Christmas the next year either because my father started drinking a lot and staying out late and then one day, when I came home from school I went into his room and saw him swing from a rope with a note on tied to his black bear stained flannel. I called the police after I read the letter. The letter said that that it would be better if I lived with another family and that he wasn't good enough for me so it would also be better if he died and found my mother again. Right before the police arrived at my apartment I was considering grabbing my kitchen knife and killing my self as well. But then i looked at the back of the note and it said "carter I am so sorry this has to happen to you just be your best no matter what don't do the same thing I did. Please live your life, Signed by mommy". At that moment I dropped the knife on the kitchen floor and started crying. They were not tears of sadness but tears of joy just seeing this note made me forget that my father was dead or my mother was dead all I needed was this note. And that's what I did I still have that note in my pocket right now it's December, 24, 2015 the worst day of my life but this note makes me feel a lot better. I live in a Orphanage now with my best friend Olivia we both have those sorrow days but we get each other through them because we both have been through it and we understand each other for example today after school she bought me my favorite thing in the world a lemon cake from bakey's a bakery down the street. So i go to high school now the worst place a guy like me to be at everyone thinks I'm so weird or so not emotional because you know my parents died and I don't cry all day. Exactly makes no sense right? So sense I am a orphan I go to the office every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to go to my councilor. The councilor helps a lot you know like she always lets me talk not her and solves some problems for me. You know I wonder how would my life be if my mother didn't get in a car crash and if my dad Didn't hang him self. Those are just pointless thoughts because I can't change time and prevent all that from happening. So I try to think on the positive side. In my future great things will come of me and I will live my life.