Loyalty Is Just A Word ( urban Book )

Loyalty Is Just A Word

When all the people that ever came into your life and do you wrong You start to question their Loyalty. Why are we family and you treat me Like shit? , Why Do I have to be the one to get hurt and abused? well I never found my answer and I dont think I ever will.. Guys? never trust a dog. Bitches? fuck them get money simple. I had to survive on my own for years and struggle go through mad bull shit but not anymore. I will get revenge. I will get My respect No matter wat i will get it and then some ! My name is Steph, Short for Stephanie and This is My story.

- It was Real Dark Outside , I looked out the window to see the bright Big moon. It was beautiful, I guess I had to look at little things like this to Get my mind off half the shit I go thru in this house. I'm only 11 years old and I feel like killing my self already. My sister Monica was 13 years old And she was always spoiled.. my Family love her way more then they love me. They treat me like the step child. like if I dont even belong to this family or something. My mother was a Junkie yeah it was horrible real horrible one day she tried to sell me to some guy for some crack. I wanted to die when she let the guy touch me. that was the worst day in my life besides the days that my own blood father comes into my room and rapes me. Yup that's exactly what happends. so every time he walks into my room I pretend like I'm sleeping but he loves that. he loves when i play hard to Get and I cant stand that shit. I'm a little girl like why would you want to touch me. I'm suppose to be his little girl. I'm the baby of the family and he gets his Say with me its really fucked up how life turns out. I told my mother and all she did was laugh in my face and told me to shut the fuck up. that day she told my dad What I said and he walked into my room and tried to kill me but Monica walked in and looked at us weird like she didn't see nothing. Sometimes I would think she was down with his dirty ass because she would Just treat me so wrong. when I go to school I sit alone I dont have no friends I dont have Noone to talk to Nothing. never had a boyfriend never had Noone to be by my side. Yes I'm young but I've been thru so much shit every I'm a Little scared girl breaking down inside but on the outside I'm A tuff girl not trying to show no fear.

I went to lay down because it was getting real late and I had school tommarow. Monica was staying in her friends house and I was real sad because that meant my father would be coming into my room to have his way with me soon. I watched the clock as it went around and around probably 5 times then that's when the nigga I call my dad walked into my room calling me sugar. He tip toed each step nd I felt my self dying a little more inside. DAM WHY ME WHY CANT THIS BE OVER PLEASE GOD. He sat at the edge of my bed and rubbed my back for a little while. I flintched at his touch and felt Like I had to throw up. I heard him Get up and un buckle his pants I knew life was over for me. if I was to call out for help or something I was dead. He would really try to Kill me so stayed quiet and let him have his way as he got on top I closed my eyes and thought back to the times me and my mother was happy. over 30 mintues of tourture it was finally over he left out my room and I ran to the bathroom to scrub. Yet again this was What happened to me everyday so I guess I was suppose to get use to this shit. Please god take my life now. You said you won't ever give us anything we cant handle well I cant handle this shit Please Please get me out of this situation. I laid back into my nasty bed and Had the same nightmare I have every night, of me trying to kill my self.