Don't leave...We need you (5SOS Ashton Irwin) *COMPLETED, EDITING*

17: Need to know

 17: Need to know

- Dedicated to @ashleighh5SOS for her help, thanks! :-) -

*Lukes POV*

This is getting stupid. Not only have I discovered that someone has taken all the razors, but also the kitchen knifes! Everyone swears they didn't do it and there's only two people away...with Leo.

Honestly I feel terrible. I am Leos official care, it should be me there with him, not my band mate and little sister. Instead I keep living the dream, with my friends without a care in the world...I wish. It's amazing this lifestyle, but I can't help but feel like me and Becca are drifting apart. We never talk anymore - we always used too, and it seems as if I have been replaced by Ashton.

I know I kinda had a choice whether he dated Becca or not, but I didn't not really. How was I meant to say no? She would hate me if I had, and we would be even further apart than we are right now.

I feel as though things are getting out of control, I can't control a thing. Becca has snuck of with Ashton to where I should be, we are traveling the world, no clue which city we are hitting next and Becca isn't herself. She's ever so skinny, is even more shy than she used to be and I never see real smiles on her face anymore. It's as if it's physically impossible for her to move her facial muscles so she can smile.

I'm trying not to blame it on Ashton but seriously, I only started noticing these things when they started...you know dating. I don't even know what they are to each other. Are they more than dating?

I also can't help but feel as if maybe we shouldn't have come on this tour. With Leo's problems it really isn't helping just causing him a whole lot more stress. It's also terrible that a 3 year old has to live on a tour bus for 9 months. I think I should have a word with the boys and see what I can do.

 *Ashtons POV*

She's scratching at her wrists again, and while she's sleeping? She's gotten worse. I let out a sigh stroking her hair back from her face. The thing with Becca is that no matter how many times you tell her the truth, she will never believe you. Honestly I don't think she believes that I love her.

I can't just make her better. I have come to that conclusion. I don't know half the things about her, and I certainly don't know what she feels, or how to stop her feeling the way she does. This morning I am going to take her out somewhere. To relax her, maybe make her feel happy. This afternoon we will go to the hospital, hopefully Leo will either be awake, or wake up soon.

"Mmn" Becca mumbles. I look down and her eye lids flutter open. I smile at her.

"Hey!" She smiles, properly smiles, but it disappears as quickly as it appeared. She hugs my shoulders.

"Hey what's the matter?"

"I...I" I hug her tighter.

"I know but you don't need to not really c'mon get ready we are going out" I stop her before she says something I don't want to hear. She nods and climbs out the bed, heading into the bathroom....damn she's fit.

*Beccas POV*

Ash has asked me to get changed no idea why, apparently we're going somewhere. As I predicted the feelings are back. I also feel closer to Ashton. He showed me last night that even if he doesn't know what it feels like, it doesn't mean he can't help me or that he doesn't understand.

I keep scratching at my wrists. I know the reason why, I think Ash does too. I also believe he is the one who has hidden...everything.

*Ashtons POV*