When you are depressed and you keep it a secret forever knowing theirs no hope for you and you meet a guy so sweet and kind you actually try pushing him away to save yourself from heartbreak but then you fall in love with him talk about hell for a emmo girl well this is what happened.
My first year of soccer a sport I only joined to be with friends was like torture because of him and by him I mean the goalie. His name was cole and he was well crazy but in a cute way. I told myself not to even think about it not to try because let's face it he was a church boy and I was and still and am a emmo.we sound like a great couple don't we? Well anyway I was scared to ruin his life because a person as nice as him does not need a emmo girlfriend . Turns out we started dating but I kept telling myself he would be the death of me and not to take it too far or get hooked on him thinking it will last forever and I really didn't until it happened. I'm one of those people who you can't tell any things wrong with them until they try committing suicide or trust them enough you tell them well I was in a terrible depression state and not caring anymore told him and some how he didn't freak when I told him instead he tried comforting me the best he could until I could at least go to sleep and that showed I could trust him and he really cared about me and as silly as it sounds I'm not as depressed as I've been and I can talk with him about it and not be scared he will tell . So at the moment I'm in a wonderful relationship with our soccer goalie Cole and hopefully we will be in one for a long time.
