Journey's Diary

Week 1

Dear Diary,

This week has been so much. Having to deal with my mom, Demarcus, and Ladarious. My mother and I are at it again. We're always arguing for no reason so I turned to Demarcus, my boyfriend, whenever we get into it.

So I finally broke up with Demarcus fr fr this time. It was really hard for me to do though. I "loved" this boy. We were together for a year but on and off. He brought out the jealous and F.B.I side of me out. I had to deal with the constant cheating and the constant lies. Knowing that I deserved better but my insecurities had the best of me. Feeling ugly and unwanted by people. He was the one that would tell me everything I wanted to hear and he was the one that was there through all the dark times I was dealing with. Something had triggered in my head telling me i deserved better. Man that day was my saddest and strongest day all at once.

A few days later on Facebook I got a friend request by someone named Ladarious. I accepted his request and once I did that "pop" I got a new message. "Hey what school do you go to?" i replied back feeling a little creep-ed out "Booker T Washington School of Arts." "That's where I know you from. You were looking very nice today." When I read that I was thinking what and the hell. Who and the hell is this. Later on I found out who he was. He attended BTW as well. As days passed on Ladarious and I started to talk and share things about ourselves to one another.

Man I tell you this week has been so much. Arguing with my mother constantly, breaking up with Demarcus, and getting to talk to Ladarious. Hopefully Ladarious and I actually get to become an item.

Okay diary that's enough for now. Time for me to hit the sheets.