It's time for you to walk away // Kellin Quinn one shot

It's time for you to walk away...

*Kellin's POV*

How? How did I ever end up letting her go? She was my everything, I promised her heaven and all I gave her was hell. I know I don't deserve her; but neither does he.

He's a fūcking díck and he's gonna break her heart. Just like I did a couple of months ago.

It's sick and I know that; but I just can't believe he gets to kiss her soft lips or hold her tight at night.

The way she laughed at my stupid jokes. Or the way she got mad at me when I stole food off of her plate. Or the way she smiled when I kissed her out of nowhere.

She's so beautiful and she has no idea.

I don't know how I ever ended up like this.

I never meant to break her heart; and I never intended to hurt her as much as I did. I'm fucked and now I can't even talk to her.

He's the reason she smiles now. He's the reason she gets up now. He's the one she will go to if she needs comfort. He's the one she'll trust with all her secrets, her thoughts, her heart and soul.

It should've been me, but I fucked up.

Good job Kellin. Good job..

"Kell?" A soft voice spoke to me.

"Kellin is that you?" I know this voice, I swear!

I blinked and there she was; beautiful as ever in her black skinny jeans, tank and faded vans. She gave me a smile and, oh how the world stopped for a couple of seconds.

"Hey y/n!"

I smiled back, gave her little wave and felt the heat raise to my cheeks.

"Oh my god! You look so different!" Her angelic voice pierced in my ears in the most beautiful way.

"So do you!" I said back, not knowing what to say at all.

*y/n's POV*

He looked different. His eyes looked tired and his smile was forced. His hair was a mess, yet so beautiful. I've always loved his hair. And his eyes.

The blue oceans that once were all I got lost into, now all I do is wonder if there's a storm underneath the calm surface of his heavenly blue eyes.

I know I should've moved on by now; but I didn't. And I never will. He still has all of my heart and that'll never change. He's my first and my last.

No one will ever compare to Kellin.

I wish I could tell him though. But I can't. He hurt me too much. I lost trust. He broke me. Yet, he's the reason I'm here.

Maybe one day we'll be together again. And until that day; I'll dream about the warm embrace of his arms and the soft touch of his lips against mine.

"It's nice to see you again," I said.

It's hard! I wanna kiss you! I love you!

"Same," he almost whispered.

Please don't go. I still love you Kell.

"Hey, I should go. I'll see you around," I said.

Seriously, I'm stupid. Don't let me go again, Kell.

"Kay," he said, gave me a weak smile and then mumbled something under his breath.

I don't know exactly what it was, but it sounded like an 'I love you, don't go'. I could've been wrong, cause it was only a little whisper escaping his soft lips I was dying to kiss.

I didn't mind asking, cause if I did I may have stayed. And I couldn't. It's time for me to walk away. I've been hurt too many times. Still, I don't know how I'll ever survive without him. He was, is and probably always will be my everything. He's my reason.

I turned around and started walking.

"I still love you too, Kell...", I whispered as I felt tears brim in my eyes.

"Goodbye," and with that, I walked out of his life; left my heart in his hands.