Asked out

Pizza Run

August 11, 2013

“I haven't watched this in ages.” I groaned. I did not want to see it again.

“Your audition was so funny though!” Taylor laughed. “You tripped on stage, at least I had the decency to not make a fool out of myself.” Taylor stuck her nose up in the air and laughed. Sometimes her and Eve were so mean to me. We were in a band, so you would think it would be all fun right? Wrong. Worst decision of my life, once my contracts over I'm getting out of their lives and finally starting one that I like. “That's why Simon likes me the best.” What a lie, she was honestly so self centered. All it is, is her image. I mean shes drop dead gorgeous, but it doesn't mean that you can't have some decency for herself. She puts on a good show though. Especially when shes with Niall.

Niall Horan.

Oh God, that boy is the nicest thing on earth, but taylor has some charm that she can get any guy to fall for her, unlike me. Who just, well, falls. Once he comes into the picture shes sweet innocent Tay and I become the meanest person on earth. You wouldn't believe how many times Niall has asked me not to insult her because of my jealousy. That shows that she should be in acting not singing. I'm not saying she’s bad, but i’m like the Liam of the band, a great singer but i'm quite shy if you don't crack my shell. So far neither of them even have. And we are rooming together on this tour.

“Im the fan favorite too.” She laughed at the video of one of my later auditions when I was speaking and my voice cracked. I have the worst of luck sometimes.

“Tay, last time I checked I was the fan favorite.” Eve held up one of those kids magazines. Like J-14, or M. Somthing like that. “Im 44 %  your 39 % and Kim’s 17 %.”

“17 %!” Taylor shouted, and started laughing. “Thats horrible.” I turned my attention to the screen again. I watched as they announced us as a band, and that we had to choose a name at a later date. Taylor looked like she could kill, Eve looked pleasantly happy, and I looked about as miserable as a person could be. You see I met Taylor before our actual first round of auditioning. She seemed nice, until she told me I wouldn't make it since i wasn’t Xfactor material. Truth being I wasn't. My slip ups while performing were the things that kept me stable until this point.

My voice cracking, my burping on stage, and finally the audition with the judges in front of me. I fell. The video had almost a million hits on youtube, and I became one of the favorites. Simon also took a small liking to my sensible attitude. He was always caring for me. He’s like a second father figure, or like a very close uncle. Except I don't call him Uncle Simon. Its just Simon, and for me. I'm ditz. I'm ditz to him and the rest of the judges. They had made me into a little inside joke. By calling me ditz.

My name is Kim. No way in hell is that related to ditz, but its because I have the most embarrassing moments. It like I was born and God said “Lets make this girls life a comedy for the people around her, it won't ruin it at all” I think thats the only reason i've been around this long.

We watched as our little band was booted off. That was the happiest day of my life it meant no Taylor or Eve, ever again. But oh, I was wrong.

“Even if i'm not fan favorite, I'm still Si’s favorite.” Taylor beamed a smile. He told me right before our first concert when I was nervous. I've never been nervous since then. That was a lie. I'm not being modest, but I was his favorite. He always takes the time to check up on me and my family. And when I'm in the area he lets me stay with him. Its nice having him around, he's not as mean as people say. He’s quite comical. A true gentleman once you bypass the harsh comments he makes to the people that have to talent whatsoever.

“Im his second favorite, since no one usually favors Kim.” Eve laughed at me. And hurt me internally. How I wish this contract could end.

“Some people favor me!” I rose my voice a little.