My heart beat is slow, my head aches with pain , my eyes feel like dry dust , my face is pail. All i see is nothing its dark and cold as each day goes by i barely have water and food. Although ive been here for years . Ive sunk my way out of abuse but yet it seems like im in hell. i yell out help but no one comes . it is always noisy out side thats why i chose to stay in this lomey like dunjen. The sounds i hear out side this rotten room are very disruptive and horrifieing. i am scared and alone the pain i fell is like fire burning statuns heart. I used to have pony tales till they cut them off. i feel ugly so all i do is cry. Crying helped heal my pain but now it only brings more pain . i cut my self , at frist stared cutting when i thought it would help heal the pain of my eyes . i thought why not put more pain on my cut arms and so the pain i feel on my eyes are pains ive felt for days , years or more. but now the new begining of blood on my arms and skin are pains that i cannot describe . I have lost so much of the flesh from my arms so i cut more of my flesh but now on my legs and HEART.
Help never comes so i help my own self .
