She trusted me and I left her for him
It was too much for me, I didn't want to hear more rumors about my sexuality, I was tired of everything. I was her only friend and I left her, my brother said it was my best decision but I don't know if it really was the right decision anymore. She used to call me her hero because I wasn't afraid of anything, but I was, even if she doesn't knew it, I was afraid to be rejected one more time by all those people and most importantly be rejected by him, I gave her the back, even when I knew she was alone.
I was trying to save myself and I left her because I only was thinking on me and what other people said about me. I started being with the wrong people, I was cruel with her, I changed myself because I thought the others will accept me for it and I realized that wasn't enough for me because I didn't have her by my side. She stopped going to the school for 2 weeks, I counted the days, and when she returned, she was different, she didn't change her style, she was still wearing her big clothes, those comfy shoes, but if you met her, you know she was different, she has that big smile on her face and I thought I died a little bit when I saw her but he was trying to bring her down and I didn't say anything...again, she saw me but I couldn't do it, my heart was breaking but I didn't try to defend her and in that moment I didn't feel like a hero...I was the villain.
The school ended and she was the best of our class, I couldn't be prouder of her but I kept it in my mind. When I finally put my big girl pants on it was too late, she's gone. If I could make everything different, I wouldn't to be honest because Jade was better without me and my stupid fear to be rejected by people who think they're better than others but the truth is, it doesn't matter how much popular are you at the school in the real world needs to work for what they want.
But if I could ask her something it will definitely be :
Jade how I could be your hero if couldn't save myself ?
-Perrie
