Chapter 14:
Goner
I'm looking below. The world had gotten darker. More like I'm now darker. So this is what I am. I'm Blurryface and I'm a monster. "How does it feel?" I asked "I'm trapped" I answered. My cold breath tingles my own skin and it almost feels like frost is about to build up. The sky looked like a canvas that had been smudged with dark colors. What I am is a dark spot in a bright painting. I'm the shadow of sorrow behind everyone's happiness. I am darkness.
"You're a goner" I said. No. "I'm a goner" I corrected myself. I'm not Clarisse. Clarisse doesn't exist anymore. I was right. She was just a figment of an imagination. Clarisse never existed because Clarisse was always Blurryface. 'I'm different, and I could never be accepted by society' I thought. For a second I felt my tears stream down my face. The tears first felt warm and it gave a warm feeling to my cheeks, but it soon dripped down my face and made my face feel colder. When my tears dropped to the ground. I could hear a slight shatter. That's my tears. My skin made my tears cold enough for my ink black tears to freeze before they hit the ground.
I heard footsteps. Then I saw a girl. She had one hazel eye and on blue eye. I recognized her but... I didn't know who she was. "Clarisse?" She asked. "No. I'm Blurryface" I answered. "No Clarisse. It's me Cherry and I know you're in there" She said sadly "Please remember Clarisse!" She pleaded. "But Clarisse doesn't exist" I said. "It's true. Clarisse really doesn't exist, but neither does Blurryface" She said.
As she said that, I experienced an epiphany.
This all made perfect sense. I know who I truly am now.
None of this is real. "I'm not real, Blurryface isn't real, and you. You aren't real" I said looking at the girl. "It's true. You finally figured it out" She said looking sadly. "It's okay. I know what to do" I said about to take off "Wait!" She called out. I looked back it her "This is really the last time I'll ever see you" She said shedding a tear. "No it isn't. I'll be seeing you elsewhere" She nodding in understanding.
I looked towards the sky "I've got two faces, Blurrys the one I'm not" I said looking back down. "I need your help to take him out" I said to myself. I know there are people there who believe I can beat this. I know I can beat this myself.
I began to move my wings slowly. It seemed much more harder to fly because my wings felt heavier on my back, but in time. I felt myself making a bit of progress.
In a matter of time I felt my feet get picked off from the ground. I was now flying towards the dark black sky. I looked below and found the girl still there. Her eyes filled up with tears, but I know I couldn't stay, because this world isn't real. As much as I want to believe this is all real. I can't prove it. That's why I continued to fly upwards.
My heavy wings began to fail me the higher I got. Until my body and wings could take no more. I realized I'm falling but I knew I'm falling slowly "Don't let me be gone" I said, speaking for both of us. I kept saying this because I knew that over time I will hit the ground and all this will be for nothing, but then I suddenly regained my control and I began to fly faster, not caring about how everything hurts. I kept flying until I saw the clouds getting closer. I wasn't gonna stop here, so I pushed through the wind and finally broke through the clouds.
Over the clouds. The sun shone brightly. I squinted my eyes just from the burst of brightness. I felt this unexplainable burning feeling on myself. I struggled to get my eyes opened because it was too bright to see straight.
I finally managed to open my eyes, and it was beautiful, it was beautiful how it was dark underneath but bright above. I looked to my hands to where I felt this burning feeling, and I saw the darkness getting off my skin. I watched it fade. I looked behind me and saw that my black feathers were falling off and new white feathers started coming out. I felt that weight that pulled me down finally letting go of me.
I felt my happiness again. Blurryface is gone, but I knew both of us couldn't survive. As Blurryface was gone, I looked at my fingers and I could tell they were fading away. They were fading away with the brightness of the sun. This is how I'll die. Now I can wake up.
I slowly lifted my heavy eyelids. I squinted as the lights above me burned my eyes. I heard a repetitive sound of something but I couldn't recall what it was. I felt a strong thirst for water. My mouth felt like I hadn't had any water in years. I seemed to be laying down in a bed. At this point I didn't know if I felt too comfortable or too sore. I felt like I've probably been here forever. I slowly began to turn my head from side to side to ease up my sore neck. Once my neck felt better. I looked to where the source of the noise was. I saw a screen that seemed to beep every second. There were numbers on the screen and some lines with it. I didn't know what they meant but it looked important.
I stayed in my place until I heard footsteps coming closer. It was a woman. I could tell from her voice that she's beautiful. I could also tell that she's crying. "I can't do this. What if nothing's gonna get better?" She said in panic. "Don't think like that" I heard a guy's voice say. "I'll check if you can't do it" He said to her. It sounded like he was walking closer to where I was.
He opened a door and sat down to a chair on my left side. He immediately covered his face and heard him sob. I turned my head to face him and he suddenly stopped crying. He must've heard the sound of my head rubbing against the bed sheets. He looked up and I felt like I recognize his face. His red hair and hazel eyes all seemed too familiar. "You're awake" He whispered. I saw a huge smile draw on his face. "Tyler you're awake!" He said elatedly. "T-Tyler?" I said with a raspy voice. "What do you remember?" He asked. "I don't know" I answered. "Don't worry. Hopefully you'll get your memory back" He said keeping my hopes up "Do you know who I am?" He asked. I didn't want to lie so I shook my head. "I'm Josh, and I'm pretty sure someone really wants to see you" He said smirking. He left the room and brought in a girl. I could immediately tell that this was the girl who was crying, because her mascara had been smudged under her eyes. She was as beautiful as her voice. She had short blonde hair and striking blue eyes. "It's me Jenna" She said. "I'm your wife" She said now smiling. "Can someone tell me what's going on" I said. This was all so sudden to me. My name is Tyler? I'm married? I needed an explanation to all of this.
After a few hours of remembering all my main memories from my doctor and my family. I finally understood what had happened.
I'm Tyler Joseph. I'm married to Jenna Joseph. My best friend is Joshua Dun and we're together in a band. We stopped the tour because of what I've done. I've done something awful. I attempted suicide on Friday August 21st, 2015. I attempted this by overdosing on Ativan. I ended up being in a coma for 2 weeks.
But during this coma I finally remembered something. Something great.
Blurryface is dead.
-Authors Note-
This is the end of Wings. I really enjoyed writing this one. It was really one of my favorite ones, but hopefully I'll be writing more crazy fanfics and if you need to ask any question. You can either comment here, or ask me on my Kik: Cheezecurlz
For now I'll just tell you I'm gonna be writing two new fanfics:
1) Please Don't Leave (Butterfly Effect)
This will be a rewritten version of my first fanfic and you get to choose the characters choices.
2) The Blurry Chronicles
This will be a story inspired by The Young Blood Chronicles but instead of Fall Out Boy, Twenty One Pilots will be the ones fighting for their lives
I hope you enjoyed this fanfic!
XO Latifa
