The Last Love
“The day we met, frozen I held my breathe. Right from the start, I knew that I found the home from my Heart beats fast, colours and promises. How to be brave, how can I love when I’m afraid… to fall, but watching you stand alone. All of my doubts suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer...
I have died everyday waiting for you, darling, don’t be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more.”
As you see, love isn’t as sweet as you wish it to be. There’s betrayal, regret, doubts, infidelity, the pain it gives us. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat i-sacrifice at anong dapat i-consider when it comes to love. Nasaktan ako ng sobra, ewan ko ba kung bakit sumabay ‘ yung love life ko sa katapusan ng vampire movie na “Twilight”. Everytime na pinapakinggan ko ‘yung kantang “A thousand years (part 1 and 2)”, nasasaktan ako, iyan na siguro yung kantang nagpapaalala sa’kin na may mga taong meant to be in love with each other ‘yun nga lang hindi meant to be together for the rest of their lives. I was in the deepest hole when Lance broke up with me, I lovedbut then to my luck, I’ve met this very special person which made me change my perception. And for now, I believe that when two people are really destined for each other, no matter what happen, no matter how long the time their away from each other, there’ll still come a time that love will lead them back to each other.
I’m Louise Stephanie Reyes, 22 years old as of now. Kaka-22 ko lang nung December 04 last year. I’m an HRTM graduate sa Cagayan State University. Hindi ako mayaman, hindi rin naman mahirap, siguro in between. Mahilig akong magshopping pero hindi naman ako pasosyal, I just love accessorizing myself and my friends lalo na nung nasa college pa ako. Yung mom ko nasa London, kinukuha na niya ako doon pero ayoko pa kasing umalis ng Pinas, there’s something that pulls me here to stay a lil bit longer. Si dad naman nasa Manila nagwowork siya doon as an engineer sa isang company. Mayroon akong baby sister, her name is Lanny, 13 years old na siya at kasama siya ng dad ko sa Manila. I’m living with my grandparents and my two younger cousins dito sa Tugue.
After college, I and my boyfriend Lance planned to search our luck in other countries, oops, ex-boyfie nga pala. But when we broke up, all of my plans were destroyed. I loved him so much kaya so much pain rin yung naramdaman ko. Sabi ko pa nga sa kanya noon na pupunta kaming Korea after graduation kung may budget na tapos after Korea sa may Thailand naman. Gusto ko kasing ma-meet and greet yung crush kong si Mario Maurer. Oo fan din ako ng “Crazy Little Thing call Love” at sa Korea naman syempre gusto kong maramdaman na ako si Athena at siya si Kenji pero ang nangyari, ‘yung Kenji ko iniwan ako.
5 years din kami ni Lance, which is my longest ka-in a relationship. Sa hinaba-haba ng pinagsamahan namin hindi ko inakala na magkakahiwalay pa kami. Ang mahirap doon e yung feeling na gusto mong tuklasin lahat ng adventures sa buhay kasama siya, pero hindi na posibleng mangyari yun. Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit yun? Sobra pa sa salitang sobra, mas masakit pa sa salitang masakit. Gusto ko siyang sampalin pero hindi ko magawa. Gusto ko siyang ipagulpi sa mga kakilala kong may pagkagangster pero hindi ko magawa. Gusto ko siyang patayin pero hindi ko kaya. Gusto ko na siyang kalimutan pero hindi ko magawa, and you know what’s worse than all of these? Ay ‘yung gusto ko pa siyang mahalin at makasama pero hindi ko na magagawa. Bakit kasi ganito kasakit?
And maybe you wonder what’s the reason of our break-up, okay i-kwekwento ko na.
Flashback …
November 08 , 2012
*message alert tone*
“Sino kaya ‘tong nagtext? Hmm, baka si Lance..”
From: Lance <3
Kita tayo mamaya, may importante ksi akong ssbhin Louise.
“Ano naman kaya ‘yun?”
Pumasok pa sa isip ko na baka magpropropose na siya or baka gusto niyang maglive in na kaming dalawa, well, assuming ako that time e. ‘Yun pala hindi ‘yun.
