The love I wanted

The love I want

The love I had is with my parents.

The love I had is with my siblings.

The love I had is with my family.

The love I had is with myself.

Elementary, I was loved

They know me

They accepted me

They loved me

And my best friend loved me as well.

5Th grade came

Everything faded

My life here got faded

No one cared about me

No one liked me

No one loved me

Even my best friend replaced me

The love I wanted and the love I had

Has faded

I curled up in the corner

just sat there..... crying

I knew it before that everything had change

Because I've changed

Everybody left me

Everybody left me

Middle school came

I was a 6th grader

I've changed

I was unique

I was funny

I was awkward

And I was loved

They knew me, they liked me

they loved me

I was happy.

I had friends around me.

I had people loved me. I even loved MYSELF.

Then....

hatred came

like it happen all over again

they betrayed me

they manipulated me

they back stab me

they hated me.

no one knows me

no cares about me

everything shattered

and everybody left me

Everybody left me.

Now I'm all alone

The love I wanted

never came true

High school came

I was treated like everyone else

I felt normal

I felt diffrent

And I felt happy

A best friend came into my life

She was my everything

She was my crazy

She was my fool

She was my diamond

I loved her and she love me too

She was my everthing.

We've went ups and downs

We've went adventures

We've went hardships

We still love each other

I had relationships

Every single guy I had dated

Was no match to my best friend

Because she was still my everything

I loved her like she loves me.

Years passed.

AFTER GRADUATION.....

Our bond broke down

Everything started to faded

She faded into my life

every bit by bit it was turning down

we had so little together.

But I'd change that

I don't want to change that

I don't want to change a single thing in our lives

But it was the mistake that I've done

and clouds of depression came by

everything changed

I've realize...

I had ruined my life

I had ruined my image

I had ruin my personalty

I had ruin my reputation

I had ruin my life

But I didn't ruin my best friend.

All I did.......was to ruin myself

My best friend died....

It was suicide

and it was my fault

If I wish I hadn't ruined anything

nothing would change

and our bond wouldn't change too

I wish I could tell

That I'd miss HER.

Every night I cried

Every night I cried

I cried and cried and cried.

God I've miss her

But I still can fixed it

I can fixed it

I can fixed it

I drove my car to the bridge

I got out and went on the ledge

it was high up

I'd prayed that after I fixed this I would get my best friend back

I said goodbye to the world

To my family and everyone

And I felt free

I felt happy

I felt amazed

I found her

I found my best friend

We reunited again

I fixed it

I fixed everything now

I felt happy

And I felt loved again

She was my everything

I was her everything

I loved her like she loves me

I finally got want I wanted

The love I wanted came true.