Never Ending Love

As I sit on the couch looking at my two little angels playing with their fingers and spitting up. Boy I tell you taking care of these two is hard. But them only being 11 months they don't cause much trouble.. Yet ! My Baby daddy is something else I tell you he won't do nothing for anybody but his baby girls and its cute but annoying , I mean I have needs to don't mean to sound selfish or anything. As I picked crying Jayda up she started to scream even louder , cause Jayla to scream , Then came down a yelling Jacob. Great just great.

Jacob- what are you doing to my baby's ? * he picked Jayla up*

Breana- look their our baby's I carried them and I just think she's hungry.

Jacob- well feed her is it that hard ? You laid on your back for 9 months and you can't get up and feed her?

For some reason those words hurt. Truth be told I love my baby's but I wasn't going to keep them. But I'll never regret anything about having my little babadies. I just got up with Jayda and made her a bottle. I put it in her mouth and she stopped crying but I began crying , I just didn't understand how he could say something like that to me. I quickly wiped my eyes and walked in the living room to my baby's room so I could lay her down. When I went in there to lay her down Jacob laid Jayla in her crib and walked over and gave Jayda a kiss and walked out. I gave both my baby's a kiss and turned their monitor on and night light , while shutting the main light off and shutting the door.

I went into our room and grab my clothes and took a shower. As I scrubbed my body I started crying because no matter what he did to me my love was never leaving. I got out and put my clothes on and put my hair in a messy bun. I grabbed a blanket and pillow and headed for the door. Jacob turned over and looked at me and asked what I was doing.

Jacob- what are you doing?

Breana- I'm going to bed , goodnight.

Jacob- bed where? Your leaving your room where the bed is. Bre come lay down what is wrong?

Bre- you act like you didn't do anything wrong. I have done more than lay on my back those 9 months. I did everything in the book. When my water broke you was play a freaking game I sat there 3 whole hours holding my pains and from pushing so I wouldn't interrupt you or your friends. Now that our baby's are here you treat me like utter shit. For what Jay ? I can't hear you!

Jay- baby I'm sorry I just haven't been myself lately I'm so sorry .

Bre- *laughs* can't even count how many times I heard that one! It's just a matter of time you start beating on me telling me "oh baby I'm just not myself today" right ?

Jay- I can't believe you would let that come out your mouth.

He got up and walked over to me and sized me up. His breathing got heavy and he gripped my wrist causing me to fall against the wall. As I looked at the rage in his eyes he started breathing hard.

Jay- you pushed my buttons I ain't ever put my hands on you and you let that shit come out your mouth.

Bre- you're hurting me , let me go I don't need this I can leave. If you would have just let me walk out earlier we would have avoided this shit.

Jay- leave? And go where huh ? You are so stupid sometimes . I should have waited to have kids with someone smart.

And bam those words broke me. I cried and started punching , slapping and screaming at him.

Bre- fuck this fuck that fuck us , I'm gone. You can have your dream. Just one thing I don't care how much I hate you . I will never regret my kids , Ill just regret the dumb ass I had them by.

Jay looked tooken back like he was going to cry but I don't give a two fucks , he brought it upon hisself. I packed majority of my stuff and started putting it in the car. I went back in and started the girl's stuff , Jay came in the room and I could see tears in his eyes.

Jay- so you taking my girls away to?

Bre- I have nothing and I mean absolutely nothing to say to you.

Jay- Baby please don't do this to me.

I ignored him and continued to pack their stuff I got their bags and milk and stuff they needed in the car. I put them in their carseats and carried them down to the car. Jayla squirmed a bit but went back to sleep. As I buckled them in Jay came and kissed them while shutting their doors. I looked at Jay and shook my head and got in while I was shutting my door Jay opened and kissed my forehead.

Jay- I love you Bre. Please come back .

Bre- I love you too but it's for the best.

I got back out and kissed him passionately. And smiled.

Bre- make sure your next baby moma is the one you really want kids by.

A tear rolled down my cheek as I backed out of the drive way. I had no clue on where to go so I decided I should drive to Atlanta. I haven't seen my momma in forever. While driving I had to keep pulling over because the girls thought playing tag scream was cute. If one wasn't crying the other was. I checked my phone and I was getting blowed up by Jay. I had a hint of regret but it's for the best , I mean why stay somewhere if you feel unwanted?