Rejected and now a Bad ass (boyxboy)

chapter 28

Not edited will have lots of grammer and spelling aswel as the next few chapers I just want to finish the story sorry for the inconvenience

Im currently 2am and i can't sleep too much is on my mind im sitting outside thinking about how my life has turned out. Its a beautiful night the sky is full of stars the crickets are singing nothing helps me think more
than sitting outside at night listening to the soothing sound of nature

I never thought I would give chase a Chance Its been a few months since I told him I would give us a chance and so far everything has been okay we go on dates and get to know eachother have sex which to me is the best part haha. but I still haven't fully given him my trust and forgivness their is only 2months left until we go back to our pack and Im unsure if I will stay or go I know its hurting him that im holding back but im trying and thats what counts right.

"Hey babe. Are you okay" chase asks me

"Yea I couldn't sleep so I thought id just try clearing my mind" I tell him

"Is it anything I can help with" he asks

"No its something I need to figure out for myself" I tell him softly

I hear chase let out a big sigh and just sits silently next to me not pushing me into telling him what's wrong which I apreciate

Trying to liven up the atmosphere " you know they say with you let out a big sigh apart of your soul leaves your body" I jokes smiling softly at him

"You are my soul he tells me lovely giving me a sweet kiss making me blush

Giggling "you are so chessy"

"Sky I know you are holding back form me and still haven't accepted me completely iv done everything I can to make you forgive me and trust me again. But im starting to lose hope I don't know what else I can do. I am terrified you will decide im not worth it and you cant get over the fact thati hurt you that you will decide to leave when your pack wants to leave pleasw just tell me what to do and ill do it ill do what ever you want or need to get you to say please just tell me he pleads with tears in his eyes looking completely broken

I feel myself tearing up at his confession " im sorry I cant tell you because I dont know myself its something I have to work out myself "

"Just forgive him sky you can be happy hasnt the time you have spent with him made you the happiest you have ever been what is holding you back" amelia asks

" I just dont want to get hurt again" I wimper to her

"I can't guarantee that he will never hurt you im sure there will be times where you fight where he will make mistakes he is not perfect but thats what a relationship is about loving, fighting, making up hasnt he proved that he really loves you even their pack has changed the all regret how they treated you the love you too and are wishing you would become there luna if you leave you will never be happy and regret it for the rest of you life. if he does hurt you you are stronger than ever you will always be welcome back into the wolfbane pack isnt giving your self a chancr at happyness beter than not trying at all and living in reget really ask your self do you love him" she asks me

Do. I. Love. Him yes ofcouse I do I love him with my entire being thats not the problem its do I trust him. Im not sure

"Can you live with out him" my subconscious asks

No!!

Wait. What!! Oh my god I can no longer live with out him. my soul belongs to him. he makes me happy I love him he has proven he loves me and does everything in his power to make me happy god im such a idiot I love him I want to stay. I feel the world lift off my shoulders I feel so free abd happy god I have to tell him and put the poor guy out of his misery

Feeling happy " chase I have to tell you-

"Tell me what that you will never forgive me or truly give me a chance like I dont already know"he barks angrily looking at me with anger and pain in his eyes. "You dont think I hear you talking to your pack mates about looking forward to going home and seeing you frinds and family again. you say your thinking about me but your not. Not really you just tell your self that. Your just playing me for a fool, being with me, having sex with me thats all your giving a chance. Is this a sick game to you where you pretend to give me a chance, make me fall in love with you so then you can walk away like I did to you. god im so stupid it the perfect revenge. Well you can stop now you've already won. And I don't feel like being played anymore." He hisses at me getting up to walk away

Hold the fuck on where did this come from what the fuck just happened I finally dicide to be with him and give him my everything and this is that what he thinks that im that type of person

"Who the fuck do you think you are" I yell standing up. I march behind him and grab his shoulder twisting him around to face me. I soften at the tears simmering in his eyes but it doesn't stop me from giving him a piece of my mind

"How dare you, you arrogant prick you think im just going to fall into your lap and forgive you just because we have sex and your nice to me. I have been giving you a chance. You think im that type of person to manipulate you and toy with you I would never do that I love you you fucking idiot How dare you. I was ready to give you everything" I say tearing up and crying " fuck you chase go to hell"

I tell him running off I head into the woods I stumble upon a clearing I stop and fall to my knees my emotions over taking me bring out the most heart retching sobs.

"What,hic, the, hic, is hic wrong, hic with me"  ugh gross is running sniff"

Gosh im blubbering away like a Purdy. Sure he hurt my feelings a little bit. but im more pissed off than anything. but here I am blubbering like an idoit like my world jist ended or somethibg. what the fuck is wrong with me. i never cry yet im always seem to be on the verge of tears lately and because of the stupidist shit. maybe im going soft. he just makes me so mad sometimes

" fucking stupid bastard. Arsehole. Bastard. Fucking idiot how can he not see that I love him the fucking idiot how could he think I would do that to him god he is the stupidest wolf iv ever met ugh!!

"He didnt mean it sky he is just scared he is going to lose you. guys like him say stupid shit when there scared"

" I know he is an idiot but he is my idiot. And if he wants to work it out he can apologize first the bastard". God what is wrong with me im always so emotional at the moment

GRRRRRR my tummy rumbles in hunger.

"OAAAAHHHH" I Yawn and so tired all the time. Maybe I just need a good night sleep all the stress of staying or going has messed me around

"I told you he would make mistakes and make you angry but you guys will work it out now that you figured out how you feel." Amelia says smugly

"Yea yea but im not specking to him until he apologizes. Dumb idiot" I huff

"Do you want to shift and go for a run amelia I havnt let you out for awhile usually your begging to go for a run or spend time with rouge by now" I ask her now that I think about it thats a bit weird

"No im good im tired. You exhaust me with all your emotional problems" she laughs at me

"Bitch" I reply heading back to the pack house for a feed and then off to bed