Memories of the Past (One Liter of Tears)

Chapter 31: The Saddest Part for Him

A/N: Chapter 31 ready! Hope you'll like it! Enjoy reading ^^

Quote of the day:

• I dreamt of you last night. We were laughing and kissing together. We were so in love. You even put your hand on my face and made me feel like I was the only one you would ever touch like that. I cried when I woke up.

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Aeign Zackrey's POV:

If I'm just dreaming, I really really wanted to wake up. If it's just a dream, I hope it will not end up like this. If it's just a dream, I hope I'll die too because all I want is to live with her.

I'm here... gazing at her. Gazing at her while she's lying on the... no. She's... she's just sleeping.

"Czian... how long do you want me to suffer from this? Huh?" I asked, "How long do you want me to die from pain? How long do you want me to get hurt from being broken? How long do you want me to cry from loving you? How long? Huh?" I asked while my tears were continously falling.

"Zack, magpahinga kana muna. It's been two nights. Hindi ka pa natutulog." Dad said. He returned from US after he heard the news. And he knew that I love Czian... really.

"Nah, I don't want to sleep, Dad. I want to stay beside her." I said then wiped my tears.

"Anak, ikaw naman ang magkakasakit sa ginagawa mo."

"And that's all I'm asking for. You know, I want to die too." I responded.

"Then I'm the one who will suffer from pain. You still care about your father, aren't you son?"

"S-sorry dad. I... I just can't help it."

"She'll understand if you're going to take a nap just a minute. Go, give yourself a break."

"Yeah... Czian, I'll just take a nap. Just 30 minutes, okay? I'll be back. I love you." I said and held the mirror of her coffin.

As I closed my eyes, her face flashed on me. She's really beautiful. I met so many girls out of the country but she's the one for me. Siya lang ang minahal ko ng buong puso. But the worst part of our story is that she left me so early. And I want to accept the fact that she already passed away. Na hinding-hindi na siya babalik pa kahit kailan.

"Zack..." Nagising ako sa isang boses. Is that her? "Zack, it's me... It's me, Czian." She said. Minulat ko ang mga mata ko at nakangiting mukha niya ang nanguna sakin.

"C-czian. Am I dreaming? Kung... nananaginip lang ako, please... Huwag mo na 'kong g-gisingin. P-please."

"Zack, I didn't left you. You know how much I love you. I'm always here guiding you. My heart always belongs to you."

"Czian... I'm h-hurting." I said.

"Ssshh, Zack, don't felt hurt. Hindi kita iniwan. N-nandito ako lagi sa tabi mo. Alam mo 'yan."

"S-sobrang nasasaktan ako... P-please, Czian... bumalik ka n-na." Halos hindi na 'ko makahinga sa iyak ko. Tangina.

"Maging matatag ka para sakin... Zack." Sagot niya at akmang hahaplusin ang pisngi ko nang bigla siyang mawala sa paningin ko.

*Present*

Panaginip... panaginip na naman. Sana isinama mo nalang ako. Sana hindi nalang ako nagising. Sana nagkasama na tayo. Sana hindi kana lang nagpakita kung hindi ka rin naman babalik. Sana hinayaan mo nalang na ganito ako. Mas lalo akong nasasaktan sa pagkawala mo. Paano ako magpapakatatag kung mismong enerhiya ko... wala na sa buhay ko?