Quotes and shit

11:11pm

It's 11:11 and it feels like my lungs are collapsing because you're my 11:11 wish and I'm nothing to you. I want everything back to the way it was before. I still love you. Oh god. I can't breathe and my whole body aches but at the same time I feel numb. I can't move. I'm paralysed with the sadness of knowing that I am nothing more than a friend to you know. You never saw yourself as perfect or handsome and I know you were self conscious but oh god please don't. You are amazing to me. You are perfect to me. You're everything I have ever wanted, I know people say you're not as cute as the other guys but to me you were better than them. But I fucked up. I know i did. I pushed away the single thing that kept me going. And because of that moments like this happen. The moments when I feel like everything is about to fall apart and I can't breathe because it honestly feels like my lungs are collapsing and my heart is shattering. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I still love you. I'm sorry that I wasn't enough. But honestly everything about you was perfect in my eyes, I didn't care that you had pimples or that you were awkward, because that was ok with me, you had flaws but then again doesn't everyone. I feel like I'm drowning in your ice blue eyes, the encapsulated me with there ice blue centre but dark blue outer circle, your eyes they shined brighter than any star ever could. You are so cute and funny and just amazing. I miss you. You're my 11:11 wish and that wish is that you will some how seem to love me again because I miss the feeling of being protected in your arms. I miss that, I miss you, I miss us.

(I wrote this myself btw)