Unforgettable Heartbreak {Vhope//Completed}

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J-hope POV

I sat on my bed pressing my forehead up against the glass window. I gaze up into the gloomy sky. The sound of the splattering rain against the window hypnotizes my ears, reminding me of him. He loved the rain.

It was exactly two years ago. He was filled with happiness and joy. Our future shined bright with high hopes. But now, it's covered. Covered by a dark cloud full of sorrow and emptiness. It was on that very day that he left me. He was the love of my life, my everything. But he's gone now. I'll never be able to lay my eyes on his perfectly imperfect smile, never be able to hold him in my arms.

Hot tears roll down my face. Leaving salty streams, down my cheeks.

Oh Taehyung why did you leave me. Was it because I wasn't good enough. Couldn't you feel the massive amount of love I had for you. Did you not know that I needed you, that my heart aches for you.

I remember the day we got together like it was yesterday. It was the best day of my life, the day my life took a turn for the better. After all the pain and suffering I went through I finally found a safe haven, a happy place away from my hell filled past. You Taehyung, you changed my life.

It all happened the fourth year of high school, senior year. I sat at a lunch table alone. Watching people walk by in their friend groups. Wishing someone, anyone would come and talk to me. At the end of each day no one came to my rescue. Even though I was constantly alone, silence serving as my only companion, I never lost sight of hope. I spent the whole four years of high school as a loner. No one seemed to like me. They all told me I was annoying, everyone would avoid me. Until one day he came along. His pitch black orbs shined with genuine concern, asking me how my day was going. I do admit, his introduction was odd but I didn't care. For the first time in what felt like forever someone saw me as something more than annoying or weird. Through his eyes I was someone.

We ended up talking and hanging out everyday during school. We got to know each other, turns out he was new to the school. His family moved and he was also in need of friends. So overtime we became best friends. It was the best feeling I've ever felt in a long while. Finally someone was there to hang out with me, someone I could talk to. I finally felt like I belonged. Over the year he made many new friends. I didn't mind, in fact I was happy for him. He was actually able to make many friends unlike me. Despite our difference in popularity level we would still talk and hang out occasionally. Until one day he left me in the dust. I would try to reach out to him but he would just push me farther away. Pretending like he didn't know I existed. He was poisoned.

Poisoned by the popularity.

After countless days of being ignored by him I would cry myself to sleep, questioning my existence. Overtime I became numb to the pain of loosing my one and only friend. By this time pain was a normal feeling. But it was as if I could never get a break. About two weeks after I got ditched there was rumors of a new couple in school. At first I didn't care about the news but once I found he was in a relationship, I broke down. I couldn't contain my emotions. It was like he stabbed a knife through my heart and then he twisted it, and twisted it. Causing my heart to shatter into a billion pieces. For all these years I held it in, pushing back the pain. Only tiny portions of my emotions escaping at times. But this time, I was a dam. I broke, the tons of emotions breaking free flowing out towards the world. Demolishing anything in its path. I became very hostile. Making everyone I spoke to, even my family members, hate me. I struggled with self harm. Hell, I almost killed myself because I felt like trash, thanks to you. You gave me false hope. Hope of a better future but that didn't happen.

At first I couldn't understand why seeing you with another man was heartbreaking. But now I understand. Its not only because you abandoned me but it was because I knew your heart couldn't love me. You would never accept me as more than a friend even though my heart craved you. When you left me, on top of loving someone else, my heart was ripped out of my chest.

You asshole.

Why couldn't you see that I was meant for you back then. That guy you dated in high school was nothing but evil. He enjoyed playing with people's emotions. Why couldn't you realize earlier, I could've took care of you. I could've protected you from people like him.

About a week after they were dating they broke up. That guy that claimed he "loved" you took advantage of you. You were left in the cold dark, your friends left you and you had no one to comfort you. But little did you know I was always here waiting for you, with my arms wide open.

I would always go to a nearby ally to cry my heart out and on that one special night you just so happened to be there too.

That dark night we both sat there.... Broken.

Thank god we were together. If we weren't I fear that mistakes would've been made out of pain and anger. You cried on my shoulder while I pressed my lips against your milk chocolate brown hair. We comforted each other, keeping us both mildly sane. Seeing you like this made me remember all the times I felt helpless and alone. Like no one knew what I was going through. A hot salty tear rolled down my cheek. I lifted you chin up towards my face. Tears filled your eyes as they stared into mine, your cheeks glistened because of the thin streaks of tears that rolled down your face. You slightly smiled, trying to hold back tears. I shook my head, embracing you. You whimpered as more tears began to roll down your cheeks. You pulled away, once again looking at me with those beautiful eyes. My heart immediately began to flutter, I took a deep breath tilting your chin up. I closed my eyes, leaning forward, gingerly pressing my lips up against yours. Your soft lips pressed against mine, it was a perfect fit. The sensation sent a burst of excitement through my body, it was like nothing I've ever experienced. I felt you slightly pull away and that's when I quickly stopped. I looked at you worried I made the situation worst. But that's what I wanted, I wanted you. You faintly smiled as you cupped my face in your hands. This time you kissed me, our lips moving in unison. The kiss lasted for what felt like an eternity. It was so pleasurable I forgot about all my problems. But like a fool I thought that my love would heal your wounds. I thought your love would heal mine but the harsh truth is love doesn't heal anything. Love manipulates. In the end it leaves you in pieces, with nothing more but memories that are unforgettable.