What The Body Wants

Lies and Truth Which One Will Win

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Chapter 21

“Nikki I love you so much and I can’t see my life without you in it.  Everything I have done these last few months have been for you.  I know… I know you can take care of yourself, but that’s not what I mean.

"What I mean is if I work hard now and establish my law practice then there would be more time for us and I don’t have to worry about whose taking care of my cases.  It’s all so simple mi amore, I want to devote so much time to you, to us and having great group of lawyers I can depend on working for me and being financially sound will give us that.”

“I don’t want to fight; I just want to enjoy our two weeks together and walk on the beach, make love on the beach and just enjoy ourselves. We can lie in bed and think about when we want to start our own family.” 

“I really want you to have my child or children they would look like their mother with just a sprinkle of me.  They would be beautiful Nikki; I have no doubt about that.  I want to wake up with you by my side every day.  I can’t wait until you are Mrs. Kevin Rainey. Damn that sounds nice, what do you think baby?”

“Once we get back home, you can check your work schedule and I will see what cases I have coming up, then plan a weekend for both of our parents and family to come down and we can announce the news to them.”  “Is that ok with you baby?” 

I stood there with my arms wrapped around his neck, my head on his shoulder and tried to absorb what he just said to me.  I feel so ashamed, he admitted to having a fling or two when we first got together, but he ceased all of that for me.  He actually desires to build a future with me, but how can I be sure this is true?”

What if he’s just trying to bait me into believing him; Even though I am sleeping with another man, what right I have to judge him? I know I should tell him while we are having this conversation, but I’m so embarrassed how do I tell him of my impropriety?  I guess I just have to spill it, don’t know how this is going to end, but I know it won’t be pretty.

I was totally unaware that Kevin was talking to me because I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts to hear him.

“Nikki? Are you alright?”

“Um yeah why wouldn’t I be ok?”

“Well I am standing here asking you a question, and you’re just standing here with your head on my shoulder a thousand miles away.”

“I’m sorry I was just thinking about what you said and I am scared of making a mistake once we get married.  I have something I need to tell you; promise you won’t lose your cool or be angry at me?”

“I thought I should be upfront and honest since were discussing things I thought it best to go ahead and face the music.”

“Let’s sit down, first let me say this.  We have been together for six years now and lately I starting to feel like you was so distant from me.  I didn’t have you around and you would come only if you had time for me or so I thought.  All I could think was that you put more into your job just so you didn’t have to spend time with me.”

“But b…ba…”

I lifted my fingers to his lips to quiet him, I had to get it all out or I would never tell him.

“Kevin, just let me tell you, you don’t have to say anything I heard you loud and clear that’s why this is so important that I tell you before I lose my nerve.”

I held my breath phew; here goes nothing.