I love you.

I love him.

Six years ago

He sent me the message that would change my life.

We started talking, everyday.

He made me smile even when he wasn't around. Laugh with no reason.

I convinced him to start a channel of his own.

It's amazing.

He came to my house and we recorded a video, i tackle hugged him at the end. He hugged me back.

As he drove away back home, i realised I was falling for him.

That I love him

Five years ago

Our channels grew.

We got closer, became the best friends we'd always dreamed of.

People started to ship us, even our friends thought we were dating.

We're not.

I love him.

But I'm just his friend

We moved in together, spent our time together without ever getting bored.

My feelings grew.

I love him.

Four years ago

We moved to London, becoming more and more popular.

He makes me happy. And I think I make him smile more to.

We're so close. Closer then normal friends.

Many he had feelings back?

I was going to confess.

I love him.

Two years ago

He got ill. Really ill.

I put my feelings aside to care for him. Make sure he was happy.

We went on holidays.

Visited friends, family. Got out more.

We were inseparable. We loved each other.

Best friends.

Just best friends, until he got better.

I love him.

One year ago

He got worse.

We didn't go out any more, people came to us. It's not like he didn't want to. He did.

He just couldn't.

His own body held him captive, slowly shutting down.

He was still my best friend. No matter how ill he was.

I never left him. Even when he spent weeks at the hospital.

I always made sure he was happy, even if I was breaking inside.

Whenever we were at home, I made sure he was happy.

We got take away. Played games. Watched anime.

When we were at the hospital, everyone loved him.

He always smiles and did as he was told.

He was like the sun.

I love him.

Two weeks ago

He never complained. Not once, the nurses adored him for it. Always just got on with it.

I still love him.

The only time he didn't do as he was told, was when he wanted to go home.

He wouldn't stay at the hospital. He knew what was coming.

I didn't. I wasn't ready.

He didn't have his family over or any of our friends.

He sat down in his sofa crease and put on anime.

He patted the seat next to him.

I sat down after checking his air tanks.

He was struggling to breath.

He needed to be happy.

I needed to see my sun.

I sat down.

He grabbed my hand and turned to face me.

Sunshine. Pure beauty.

"P-phil"

"Dan" I replied

Tears flowed down his face.

My sun was dimming.

"I love you"

My heart grew and shattered.

He loves me

"I lo-" his eyes closed, his body related and he stopped drawing breath.

I loved him.

Today

Here lies Daniel Howell. 
1990-2015 died age 25.

"I love you"