Forever Love (Stauren) {Book 2: Completed}

A reason to fight :) (read pls?)

I think most of you will be a bit happier after you read this, but you have to read the whole thing :)

Over and over again every single day I think about ending everything and just being done. No matter how hard I try not to be, I am always in some sort of pain whether it's physical, an illness, or mental and I can never escape it. The picture attached (hopefully) is my 18 month old sister Harper and she is my reason to live. She is the small bit of hope inside me that keeps me going every day, but I don't live with her because my parents are divorced. I don't get to see her often and it kills me on the inside that I can't be with her every day.

I remember the first time I met her when she was only two days old, I immediately started crying when I picked her up into my arms. Even though this sounds cheesy, it's true. I knew that from that moment on, I would love her more than anything and would protect her my whole life.

Things at school have gotten really bad and I was so ready to end everything, but I went to finally see Harper this past weekend and she changed everything. Right when I walked into the door, she screamed out with a smile from across the room, dropped everything and literally sprinted over to me, hugging my legs (the picture is of her after she hugged me). I realized that my baby sister needs me, and that I can't leave her. I need to see her grow up and become a strong woman. I need my little sidekick that literally follows me around everywhere. So I need to keep fighting for her. I don't know what I would do without her (and GlennIsBae 'cause she has literally saved my life multiple times even though we don't even live in the same country <3).

Even though things have been really bad lately, I've decided that I can't give in to all the shit that is trying to bring me down, and that I have to keep fighting through it all.

If you are going through something at home or are bullied at school, keep fighting through all that shit that is being thrown at you. Show those people that you are better than they are and that you are strong. My stepmom always tells me this when I'm upset over something: "I know Maggie is one of your favorite Walking Dead characters and I can tell that you admire her a lot. You admire her because she is strong and doesn't give up when a walker comes along. Do you think Glenn would've had the hots (lol her exact words) for Maggie if she depended on everyone to take care of her like a child? No he probably wouldn't of. Maggie survived and fought to be where she is now, so you need to survive and fight just like her."

Thank you all so much for being there every time in feeling upset or am really sick. You guys are the best! I'll have an update up for you real soon :)