Did I kill Goh?

     Did I kill my friend Goh?  I can remember like it was yesterday . It was a beautiful Sunday afternoon. It was closing time. Goh and I were working in a small town restaurant. He was a waiter and done with his chores. I was a dishwasher and had fallen behind. We were very good friends.

      Goh was not an ordinary guy. He was an exchange collage student from Ethiopia, Africa . A great heart and very smart. I remember him speaking of his goal to create his own computer software,so he could upgrade Ethropias technolegy by ten years.Like I said not an ordinary guy.

        So back to the restaurant. I needed a ride home. He had a small two door Mazda. As soon as I asked he was ready to help. Even rolled up his sleaves and we finished up the rest of the dishes togther.

        On our way home, pulling out of the parking lot. Our boss pulls up beside us. He was driving a 70's VW Beatle.He was constantly teasing Goh to race and today was no different. After teasing each other in the parking lot, We decided to go race in an abandon runway. We did, and to no surprize our boss in the bug beat us easy. Goh had raced that bug pleanty of times in the past with no victory ever.

        Well that was that. We were going home.We are at a corner, stoped and fixing to turn left. The turning signal is on. It indicates turn left. Then I open my stupid mouth. Out come the words I've regreted ever since. " Lets go race on that dirt road straight ahead." It seamed like a fun idea. Goh and our boss agreed. So we set-up side by side and hit the gas. The bugie's tires spinned in place, the Mazda takes of ahead. For the first time Goh had won a car race. It was a sweet feeling. His face held this beautiful smile and grin. You could tell he was having his moment of victory. 

        Soon craving another rush I ask Goh to scoot over,so that our boss could line up again and we could give it another go. " Your crazy" he answered " not at this speed." "Come on don't be a  pussy" I told him. He looks at me and asks " Are you willing to die?" With ignorance in my voice I answered  " fuck yea I'm willing to die." Those would be the last two sentences my greatest friend and I would ever say to each other.

         Neither one of us had thier safety belts on. However in the middle of our small conversation, while looking back at the buggy coming behind us, I had wraped my arm around the back of my sides bucket seat. As I tell Goh that I'm willing to die . It was instant that his car slid of the road. My reflex was quick to hugg the back of the bucket seat. I held on so tight . I held on for my life.

        As his car lost complete control it slid of the road, and hit a small irigation ditch that ran all along the field's on the side of the road. This ditch made Goh's car flip over more then a few times. I rememeber the car finaly coming to a stop.More then fifty yards in a clean plowed fieled. It landed upside up but the roof had been crushed.I could hear the car making a loud hissing noise.I remember thinking it could blow up.

       Somehow I managed to squeez my self out through a small crushed window openning.Arms first I land on the plowed soft dirt. For a split second I'm laughing , thinking Goh just fucked up his car. I'm still laying on the dirt when I here my boss screaming "What did you guys do?"I was a bit disoriented,so i thought he was screaming at Goh. I look up and see he's talking to me.We both look at the ditanse. Goh's body is on the ground. I knew he was hurt. 

        We ran up to him. I could not believe my eyes. There was my friend Goh in a huge puddle of blood. His head had been crushed. His brains were gushing out of his head.His body was in an uncontrolable jerk. His eyes were open but not moving. I yell out his name but I get no responce. I know he was dieing if not already dead.

           My boss is scared himself.He tells me to stay with him and left to get help.He left so quick I had no time to think .Now I was there,my most fucked up moment ever.In the middle of nowhere. My friend is dieing.I'm feeling helpless. I start sceaming for hep at the top of my lungs.I'm sceaming because I'm so scared and clueless.

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