When you cant sleep at night

WYCSAN { 2 }

{ chapter two }

{ Ariel }

Their are some days when the world seems to turn gray and the wind whips around sending me into a small corner of blackness in my mind and make me think morbid things; but even in the dark gray periods of time were the demons chase me there is a small glint of light.A flash of sun and grass with icecream and the gentle happiness of the summer time and for a second I feel like an angel has lifted me away and taken me to see my father.

I was 12 when it happend. I lost my brother and father in a car accident.

I Rember the day so vividly I can never truly shake it out of my mind.

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{ 4 years ago }

"Ariel....Ariel get up!" I turned over and saw mike looming over my bed side shaking me awake.A small smile slipped on his face when he realized that I was pissed off.

"Dad said to get up and get ready."

"Ugh", I groaned a pulled my self out of my bed and quickly pulled on a pair of shorts and a tee shirt.

I trotted down the stairs to see my dad and mike sitting at our table eating.The sun beamed straight through the giant bay window and casted on to the dark wood of the counters and tables of our small kitchen.The air was sweet but it was stiff and my father took his usual place at the head of the table, munching on a bowel of Cheerios.

Mike was at his seat and chewing on bacon looking like the relaxed laid back kid he was.

I was so jealous of Mike.He was cool and popular. All the guys wanted to hang out or be him and all the girls were jumping into his arms.The teachers thought he was so spectacular because he was straight A's and was the all star of the football, Track and soccer team.

And there I was little Ariel,Boring and awkward.I had no social skills whatsoever.My only friend was Bonnie and she never really talked to me anymore because I could never hang out due to my anxiety and panic attacks.My grades seemed to slip a little and fall down to C's and I could barely run a few feet without tripping.

I was Amzing Mikes little sister and I was a complete disappointment compared to him.

I sighed at say down quietly and grabbed some toast.

After about fifteen minutes my father was up and rushing us into the car and we started to drive into the city.

The drive was normal and long with Mike blasting music and my dad telling him to turn it down, well it was until we hit the high way.

My face was pressed up agenst the cold window and Mike kept poking my arm to annoy me. Finally I sighed and punch him in the arm

"ARIEL WHAT THE HELL!" He shouted with a slight grin on his face knowing that I would get in trouble.

My dad turned to face us.

"Ariel wh- "

He was cut off by an earth and life shattering noise.

I felt the car rise up and down and flip abound compressing and crushing us all as we tumbled down the hill.

Naturally I pulled myself into a ball trying to block the small shards of glass and metal flying all over the place.I tried to scream but nothing came out when I opened my mouth.

Finally the car stopped rolling and everything was dead silent.

I looked over to see Mike half way out His window all bloody and torn up.

My dad wasn't even in the scrap metal of a car.

I could feel my self slipping out of Reality fast.

I woke up two days later sitting in intensive care with my mother sobbing beside me.She told me my father died on impact and mike died last night at the hospital.

I threw up at the news.

I got to go home a week later but things ,wernt the same.

My mother just sat in her chair smoking and crying and forgetting about her young daughter.

And when she did speak she blamed it on me.

And felt guilt.

No one at school looked at me.Not because they hated me but because they were scared of what happend and didn't know how to say or react.

I slipped into depression and my anxiety got worse.Soon I had horriable nightmares And I could never fall asleep.