America's Little Angel { adopted by one direction}

Chapter 8

I sat on the cold, hard sidewalk. There was this big bang and it started to rain, hard. Soon I was soaked to the bone. The wind was blowing hard. I was shivering. I had stopped crying but I sat there I not ready to face the boys. I got up anyway but headed in the opposite direction. The rain was beating down on me hard. I shielded my face with my hand. I walked onto the porch and knocked lightly. I was weak and I could faint at any minute. Don't fall over Jen, Don't fall. The door opened and a 20-year old woman opened the door.

"Jennifer!? What are you doing here?!?Where is your parents?!" She panicked.

"I ca--" I was weaker by the minute before I knew it my eye lids shut and everything went black.

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What's going on?    

You passed out. 

Oh. Am I dead? 

What do you think?!

Gosh, my brain is mean!

Ya think!

How long have I been out?

4 Hours now. 

4 HOURS!!!! HOW COME YOU NEVER TOLD ME??? 

Aren't I telling you now?? 

Well yeah but... 

But what?? BUT NOTHING!!! I'M RIGHT YOU'RE WRONG!

Technically we're both wrong cause you are me. 

Oh stop being such a Smartass! 

Well, you make me who I am.... so blame you! 

You mean us. 

Shut up. 

No, why don't you just shut yourself up? 

I would but I can't! 

Well why not. 

Cause I'm not awake do that! 

"Jennifer?" 

Who's that? 

Louis, you're waking up. 

No! I'm not ready! 

Open your eyes. 

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"You're UP!!" Dani yelled. 

"Oi, quiet down." I Mumble opening my eyes.

"Jennifer don't walk out like that ever agin! You scared us!" Eleanor said smiling.

I just grabbed the pillow and threw it over my face. I just wanna talk to my brain, again! Just Me, Myself, and Brain.

"Jennifer what are you doing?" Perrie asked. 

"Dying." I say, knowing I hurt Niall, but I've just given up. I don't care anymore. 

"Kitten, don't talk like that. You're scaring us." Harry said, his voice gently shaking. 

"Why, what if I like scaring you?" I ask, not really making a question. 

"This isn't like you, what's up baby girl?" Liam asked, I pulled the pillow off my face sat up and looked Liam in his eyes. 

"This is me, nothings up, and why you up in my business!" I snap, not breaking eye contact, everyone jumped.

"Guys, can I talk for you outside for a second?" Louis asks they all nod and walk out.

A few minutes later, Niall walks in and shuts the door behind him. I cross my arms and wait for him to say somthing.  

"You've changed." Niall says. 

"No i ha--" He cuts me off. 

"Yes you have, and you know it!" He screamed at me. My jaw dropped he's never snapped at me ll before. 

"You are not the girl I met a few days ago, YOU ARE A LIAR!" He screamed. 

"I hate liars." Niall said pointing at me. My heart broke. He hates me, he really does. 

"and you can forget coming home with us." Niall said leaving and shutting the door behind him. 

That's just great! Bribry has been adopted and so has Luke! I'm all alone! The boys left me. I heard a car start, I ran over to the window and saw the boy's car drive away. They're gone, for good. They never loved me. I was just a toy to them. I ran to my bathroom and fumbled around in the cuboard until I found it. A razor. I made a slit across my wrist and dropped the razor. I slid down the wall and landed on the cold bathroom floor. I sobbed and sobbed. I eventually fell asleep on the floor. 

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I woke up and got up off the floor. I looked at myself in the mirror. Too fat here, too fat there, and way too fat here! That's all I was fat, fat, FAT! And my face, UGGH!!! I was so UGLY!!! I grabbed the razor off the floor and made two more slits on my wrist. 

"JENNIFER, SOMEONE IS HERE TO TAKE YOU HOME!" One of the councillors yelled. 

I cleaned up my cuts. I walked out into my room. I grabbed a black hoodie and grey sweatpants and a pair of white socks, the floor was cold. My hair was a mess. from sleeping on the floor, I fixed my hair into a messy bun and brushed my teeth.  I walked downstairs and was surprised at what I saw. 

The boys stood infront of me. All looked like they couldn't sleep last night. Niall looked the worst, he had dark circles around his eyes, his eyes were red from crying, and his face was tear stained. 

"Hey guys!" I say smiling. There frowns turn to smiles and Niall ran to pick me up. I hugged him tightly and giggled as he spun me around.

"Hey! How are you?" Niall asked holding bridal style, carrying me out of the Orphanage and into the car with the rest of the boys.

"Great!" I lie. Turthfully, Niall I feel ugly, and fat! No one loves me and I cut! that's how I feel okay! Not great! Right now I wanna curl up in the bathroom and cut myself! Niall I feel unsecure I guess...I just can't say that to you.

"Oh My God! " Perie says. What's wrong with her. I look around and everyone's jaws are open and their eyes are wide.

"That's not true it it?" Niall asked.

I looked at him confused and scrunched up my nose. "What do you mean?"

"That you cut, and that you feel fat and ugly?" Niall asked. My eyes widen. I SAID THAT OUT LOUD!!

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Picture of Jennifer on the side.