the girl , the boy and the baby

The girl, the boy and the baby

"What do you mean it broke?"

"It-it just snapped."

"Shit."

******

5 weeks ago I had sex with David Wright and the condom broke.

I haven't had my period yet

And I feel like crap.

"Sarah?" my mom's voice rings in my ears. "Did you hear me?" I turn to see her with her purse and keys.

"Sorry, what did you say?" I say snapping out of my head.

"I said do you need  me to get you anything from the drug store?" she riffles through her purse. "I have some coupons for tampons in here somewhere."

"Oh." I say and feel my heart race. "Yeah thanks." I don't wait for her to respond I hurry from the kitchen, fear making my stomach do flips.

In my room I hear her car speed off, I close my eyes and feel tears sting. I rub my stomach experimentally and I feel it quake as my tears turn into loud sobs. My phone rings and it scares me out of my crying fit.

"Hello?" I say wiping my eyes.

"Hey...it's me," his voice was hesitating. "How are you?"

"What do you want David?" I ask becoming angry; he's been calling me nonstop these last few weeks and it was irritating me, that i never had any answers for his questions.

"Well I haven't seen you I just wanted to check on you..." he let the sentence fall

"I don't know so just leave it okay?" I say then hang up.

Two more weeks pass and my period still hasn't come, I haven't answered any of David's calls and I've dodged my mom at every turn.

"How about we go shopping." She says as I wash the dishes. "Those jeans are looking tight." She says as she tries to pinch the fabric over my thighs but it doesn't give. "Are you trying to gain weight?" she pauses and cocks her head. "It wouldn't hurt you've always been stick thin."

She smiles and walks away.

So I was getting fat...fan-fucking-tastic.

*******

"Why haven't you been answering my calls?" a voice whispers behind me as I pull my books out my locker.

"Because I have nothing to say ." I begin to walk away.

"But you said your period hadn't come," he whispers the last part. "Did it come yet?"

I felt my heart sink a little because David was a smart and well rounded guy. I always loved the fact that he wanted to take responsibility for everything he did.  But I could never understand what he saw in me, I wasn't very smart and many boys called me cute, not sexy. I didn't understand what good I  do for him. We had been dating for three years before he even asked me to have sex with him. He was sweet and naïve and there wasn't a doubt in my mind that if I was pregnant, that he would stick around. That's why he couldn't stay with me.

"Yes okay!" I lied. "Can you leave me alone now?" I speed up but I feel him grab and pull me back.

"What is wrong with you?" he finally burst. "Why are you acting like this?" I don't reply he grabs both my shoulders the looks around before he leads me under the nearby staircase. His grey eyes were shining as he stared down at me. Stray black hairs were hanging over his forehead and I had the urge to reach up and brush it away as I usually did. I mentally slap myself.