RANDOMNESSS

rant

[I'm sorry you have to read this]

[I'm sorry for everything]

[I'm a failure]

[Failure of a writer]

[A complete failure]

If i could i would just literally kill myself right now

I hate my class

I hate everything

I hate the universe

fuck everything

fuck fuck fuckaty fuck fuck

Fuck my class 

fuck everything.

So in class today we were deciding what to sell for a event at our school called bizkid$ as a class

So these group of boys decided to tell the teacher that they wanted to make a pinball machine.

and they haven't even tried to make the pinball machine at all.

So i ask them that are they really sure if they actually can make it because they never made it before.

They say they're a 100% sure that they can make it

I ask them again then they start talking of how foolish I am and how much of a busybody I am to ask.

This time i screamed at them It's their fault if the pinball machine is not possible to be made.

I screamed because the Class was making a lot of fucking chaotic noise.

Then they said why do I sound so angry.

And at that point i just cried out of anger.I my teacher cried as well

fuck everything

I was trying to fucking help you to make sure that you can fucking make the fucking thing

Geez

Stop being so fucking self centered

I'm trying to help you not be a laughing stock of the fucking class

Fucking hell

At that point I'm just so fucking done with the class

So.Fucking.Done.

Don't want my help?

Fine

It's not my fucking fault if you fail to make the thing

I fucking warned you

But NO

You decided to be a fucking asinine bastard 

And think there's no consequences to your fucking actions

And everything is fucking easy

well NOTHING is fucking easy

No fucking thing is fucking easy

like fucking writing books

Fucking drawing

You know what fuck you class

Fuck you to those boys who think you can do anything you want

My class has been like this since last year

And Its seriously worrying how are they going to act in secondary

my class is so fucking disrespectful

No fucking respect

If they can't respect even their teachers,friends,classmates,How the fuck are they going to respect people

how

How

HOW

I don't want to go to school tomorrow

I don't want to see my fucking class

i'm seriously so fucking done with everything

I HATE EVERYTHING

FUCK YOU LIFE

FUCK YOUUUUUU

FUCK YOU

DLGKGFKFKHFJHSHF

I HATE YOU LIFE

WHY CAN'T I JUST KILL MYSELF NOW

WHY CAN'T I JUST KILL PEOPLE

WHY CAN'T THE WORLD JUST DIE AND END NOW

FUCKING HELL

MY FAITH IN MY CLASS IS FUCKING GONE

I HAVE NO RESPECT FOR THEM ANY FUCKING MORE

I HATE MY FUCKING FORM CLASS

THAT'S WHY EVERY SINGLE TEACHER THAT COMES TO TEACH US HATE US

BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO FUCKING RESPECT

THEY THINK THEY CAN DO ANYTHING THEY WANT

THEY THINK LIFE IS SO EASY

THEY THINK THAT THERE IS NO CONSEQUENCES IN LIFE

STOP ACTING LIKE CHILDREN AND TAKE A LOOK AT REALITY

STOP LIVING IN A FANTASY THAT WILL HARM YOU

REALITY ISN'T NICE CLASS

REALITY IS FUCKING CRUEL

REALITY GIVES NO FUCKS IF YOU'RE HURT INSIDE

REALITY WON'T GIVE ANY MERCY OR SHIT

YOU HAVE TO WORK FOR SHIT

DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S HARD WORK,CLASS?!

YOU KNOW WHAT CLASS

IF YOU FACE THE CONSEQUENCES OF SOMETHING I TOLD ABOUT

DON'T BLAME ME THAT I DIDN'T FUCKING TELL YOU THAT THERE IS CONSEQUENCES TO EVERYTHING YOU DO

BECAUSE FUCK YOU I'M DONE WITH TRYING TO HELP YOU TO REALIZE CONSEQUENCES

FUCKING LEARN ON YOUR OWN

FUCKING LEARN FROM YOUR OWN MISTAKES

I'M DONE WITH YOU CLASS

EVEN THOUGH I'M STILL PARTICIPATING IN THE EVENT

I'M NOT FUCKING HELPING TO MAKE YOU REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE TO THINK FOR YOURSELF

FUCKING THINK FOR YOURSELF AND STOP FOLLOWING YOUR FRIENDS CLASS

BECAUSE YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT BE FUCKING WRONG

YOU HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN USE IT

DO YOU EVEN USE YOUR BRAIN OTHER FOR EXAMS & HOMEWORK

BECAUSE YOU DAMN DON'T SEEM TO USE IT

I'M DONE WITH LIFE AND EVERYTHING

Also,firefly_magic I was scrolling through my Instagram on her phone then she saw a pic of one of your drawings so she asked.I'm sorry but I don't like to lie.I'm sorry.you can unfriend me or something if you want.You can stop talking to me.But i'm really sorry.

i think I'm taking a break from talking to people

I'm going to ask my mum if i can see a psychiatrist.

i think I'll be silent for a while

a long while

i will still write but i ain't replying to messages

-bye

-silver

[I'm sorry you have to read this]

[I'm sorry that you have to read this book every time it updates]

[I'm sorry that if i irritate you guys with updates]

[I'm very sorry]