Preface
Megalomania is a psychopathological disorder characterized by delusional fantasies of power, relevance, or omnipotence. - Wikipedia, 2013
Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder[ in which the individual is described as being excessively preoccupied with issues of personal adequacy, power, prestige and vanity. This condition affects one percent of the population. First formulated in 1968, it was historically called megalomania, and is severe egocentrism. - Wikipedia, 2013
I'm writing a book
I was sitting in my boyfriend's friend's apartment when I was asked what I do with my spare time. I said: "I'm writing a book." My boyfriend's friends laughed., and later when they left the room, my boyfriend turned to me and to my absolute horror.,said: "Don't tell people nonsense like that. You are just making yourself look stupid!"
I guess that should have been the moment I made my exit. Instead I chose to ignore my red alert system. The warning alarm sounded but I talked myself around. After all, this was my first experience of dating someone above my station - maybe this was what dating an educated man felt like. He wasn't like all the others trying to date me - they looked what they were - losers: "Yo baby, you looking for a ride." Deadbeat kerb-crawlers looking to pick up a sista on the street. Puh-lease. I wasn't about to let just anyone touch me - I was saving myself for the right man. He had to have good pedigree - to make up for what was missing in mine. As far as I was concerned, I'd been a good Christian, I didn't sleep around, smoke or swear - surely God would reward me with someone nice.
If only I'd known that any boyfriend who talked to me with zero sensitivity is in the.,How to avoid a dangerous man list. I was eighteen years old though - what did I know?! I was barely out of school. Little did I know I was about to drop out of Performing Arts College. I guess being a drama student was nothing compared to the big drama of my life - and what it would soon become; how one bad decision after the next would take me to where I am today - sitting at my computer in a rundown housing estate with four children and considering ending my marriage to one of the most dangerous men in the world - a narcissist.
