The memories that return

As I walked down the ghostly prison alley,I remembered her warm touch;the one feeling that made me shiver,the one that me tingle with excitement .Now that it is lost,there is nothing in this ungrateful land that I yearn for more than her rejuvenating love. Day after day after day, I breathed in the melancholy air devoid of her earthy fragrance that I shall relish no more. The world thought of us as the epitome of togetherness, but what remains today is that of nothingness.

Her image still remains crystal clear in my mind -her angelic aura that lured me in;so serene ,yet so satanic. Her curly copper tresses swished past my face as delicately as a feather, The way she looked at me with those big brown eyes, ohh it was a sight to behold ,her rose like lips that I so desperately wanted to taste. I had decided to give her my all, pursue her relentlessly until I got a positive reply. Her persona said a lot,however,there was a mysterious veil that always shrouded her as though protecting from the blatant lies of the corrupted universe. Our love was platonic and it was too pure for my callous soul. She trusted me with all her heart and this was a first in our history.

On that moonlit night,I was overwhelmed by her sinless perfection,her matchless beauty .I could keep our pact in place no longer .I wanted her and for the first time ever,I became a beast. I broke into her veil of mystery under the influence of exceeded levels of stimulants. My unquenched desire burned through her skin,eating her alive layer by layer till I saw her experience a somewhat euphoric madness .

I saw the emotions of sudden newly-created animosity in her bloodshot eyes that compelled me to bring my immature actions to a halt. She stormed off leaving me desolate and dreary under the mocking moon. She departed and I never saw her again. I was punished for an unpardonable crime,a life sentence for an unnatural offence against my princess.
No penalty would deem as fitting for I had betrayed the most perfect creature on earth, the delightful being that brought so much passion into my life. I destroyed the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me- pure unadulterated love.

It has been 7 years since that woeful day, and no amount of guilt,regret and remorse can bring her back into my longing arms. The irreversible damage has been done and all I ask is for forgiveness. This will probably be my last ever message to the world. The prison cell is not the best place to do this but I need to feel what she felt in order to atone my sinful actions. The liberating feeling of the limited quantity of blood flowing out of my slit wrist has recreated her pain, I feel.

The only difference is that she survived it and I probably won't.

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