"I really just want to be alone" I pleaded to him.
Caleb backs away from me and just stares.
"But you're always alone."
I stood there and glared at him. His words didn't shock me, we both knew that I was. There's no denying in any of it. He did what he had to do and now I can be left alone.
I pointed at him and shook my head.
"It's about time you noticed that Caleb and that's how I want it to stay." He scoffs and shakes his head just like I did seconds ago.
"You don't get it do you? You're not alone Valerie, and as long as I'm here you won't ever be alone. Physically perhaps, but any other way I'll make sure I'm there. I know that your parents left in a short time and they'll never get to see you do amazing things. But that's the point-- they can still see you from high above and that's why you have to keep doing amazing things. You're drowning and I want to be the one to help you make it out alive. I want you to have an amazing life and I'm going to help you. . Maybe you won't be okay today, or tomorrow or even next week. But that's okay Valerie, it's okay to not be okay if that makes any sense at all. I'll be here as long as it takes, I just hope you won't get sick of me yet."
And with that I'm crying- no actually I'm bawling--In a happy way of course. Every word that came out of Caleb's mouth was beautiful. He said something that most people wouldn't ever say, that it is okay to not be okay. I never thought that I would need to hear what he said but turns out I did. I smiled so big, a truly,very real, smile. Before I could wipe my tears away, Caleb beat me to it. His large thumb wiped every tear that slipped out and before I could do anything he wrapped his arms around me. And I too, wrapped my arms around him not wanting to let go of this moment.
12:36 pm
Since they aren't taking attendance in the next classes since it's an assembly, Caleb and I decided to stay outside. We sat down in the grass and he kept holding on to me-- well actually me, but he doesn't seem to bothered with me clinging on to him. Tears would slip every now and then but Caleb was there to wipe them away. My chest started to hurt, it felt very familiar though and it was hurting a lot so I told Caleb. He just chuckled, "what exactly hurts? Your heart?," I nodded. "In moments like these, your heart starts hurting because your trying to let someone in emotionally. It's going to hurt a couple times trust me."
Well damn this is going to hurt a lot if I'm letting everyone in. Like I'm a sign saying there's free McDonald's food.
"Caleb?" I looked up at him and he looked down at me with eyebrows up, telling me to proceed. I turn to look at my fingers instead of him, "I'm like, really hungry, actually I'm starving." Caleb starts laughing and I end up laughing too.
"Didn't you eat?" I look at him trying to make an angry face but sadly fail. "No but thanks to you, you took me away before I could get anything."
He mumbles an okay and gets up and pulls me up from the ground. "Fine that was my own fault. Come on now, let's go get some food."
11:53 pm
I got home hours ago, but I still couldn't sleep. I was having 'those bad days' again, even though it's almost the end of the day. You know those days that you have when you don't feel anything or don't care at all anymore? Yeah, that's exactly what I'm feeling. I'm currently sitting on my parents' bed in their room, thinking.
After a while I decide I'll sleep in here tonight. Before I know it I start dozing off in a comfortable slumber.
A/N it's short, I know I'm aware but what's happening next is very longish?
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Fixing Up Valerie
JugendliteraturAfter the incident Valerie was never the same. The only person she has left, abandoned her. Few people knew what had occurred but yet they didn't bother to help Valerie out. Until one special boy paid attention. He vowed to her that he would fix Va...
