Bestfriend Betrayed

Betrayed

Betrayal hurts, pain coming from the people you loved the most, it hurts, bad. Broken hearts and broken hearts are nothing to tamper with. Your life is difficult with or without people but it is supposed to be better with people helping you deal. So I do ask, have you ever been betrayed, hurt, and lied to? Left in pain when someone you that was supposed be down for you was never down for you and you? You didn't have someone when you had someone, but they just weren't there for you?
June, early June I adapted a friend, not just any friend, a best friend who lived right next door. Hot muggy evenings outside made us closer, seeing as though we were to explore where me and her never went before. The thrill of having a friend who is down, who you believe wouldn't judge and will have fun and not be a prune when you are out is wonderful. Who liked adventures, and loved to taking risks. I loved to just be able to tell her anything. I did the same routine every single day: Go to school, come home, text best friend, make plans and go, we did this everyday until after graduation.
We learned more about each other but I was really just on the fence about us being friends. I did believe she was a little too judgemental for me. I still continued to be her friend though. Loud mouth and kind of disrespectful was how she was, giving no cares in the world.
At least a week before graduation, I met the mistake, the presumed to be boyfriend (ex now). It was kind of awkward meeting him for the first time seeing as though I was in the middle of an argument with my ex and his friends. Heading to the end of the street, Frisbee and Grandview, a car pulled beside. A brownskin and a very fine lightskin who I had asked the day before could I (jokingly) kidknap him. The brownskin in the driver seat who's name was Dawon asked for my number. I paused for a moment, my ex was walking towards us whille talking crap then yelled a curse a word or two they way to shut them up. I quickly redeemed myself and asked again for clarity if he really wanted my number or not. He replied with a quick yes then my best friend added her two cents in on the situation, she told me I should give him my number and I reluctantly listened to her. First mistake.
About a week went past with me and him talking and me and Jae's friendship and i couldn't really manage the time between the both of them. Most likely upsetted her because I spent most of the my time with him rather than her. I left and went on vacation for, give or take, about a month. I believe the day of me leaving we got into a petty little argument because he said someone told him I got ran, which was totally preposterous, because the only people who knew about even the situation was the boy it included and my supposedly best friend. I asked many people what they thought and they all suspected her. I never spoke on it because i didn't want to start anything, especially if she didn't tell him, and if the boy actually told him that which was also a possibility. I came about four weeks later and the day before he texted me and told me to come back and talk to him about our problems that we were having the day before, the rumor. When I did come back we spent hours arguing back and forth about some stupid things. I left and started walking home but then I realized I didn't ask him what I originally was supposed to ask him if he said he wanted to sleep with Jae, the answer was vital in me and his relationship and me and her friendship. I called him up like, "I forgot to ask you something," he replied with a short but sudden,"What?" I responded real quick like,"Did you say you to have sex with Jae at river days?" Then he snickered and said," That's funny because-- Nevermind bro, I'm not even gon say nothing." I was walking across a main street at this point, utterly confused and intrigued to know what was going on. "No, tell me, I want to know." He then proceeded to tell me that they did in fact have sex then everything in my head was clear. I legit became a brand new person after he told me that. It felt like my old soul was knocked right out of my body and a knew just came in right behind it to replace. It was so weird, I wasn't mad or sad or anything. I didn't have a reaction to that information, my face went from dead straight to a grin. I was mortifyingly happy, in many ways which made me feel utterly open to confusion and sorts.
The next day me and her ended up going with a group of my friends to the other side of town. Everything was going great, I hadn't mentioned what happened to anyone, I didn't look mad or disinterested in what she or anyone else was saying, I legit looked completely normal. One of my friends in the group of the many we were with, Destiny, I called her over so I could vent about the situation because mentally I was so distraught. I mentally could not deal and I believe you could see it on my face after I told her what was up. She told me," I think you should just cut her off, that's some dirty s***. She wasn't a real friend for that." I replied, looking sad and mentally messed up," I don't know man, this is so messed up, I'm so mentally messed up right now. I have no clue what to do." Shaking my head, I walked and put some distance between the big group of my friends, and the small group of the others to the other side of the street, and i sat in the curb trying to figure out what to do. Some how me and her got to arguing and I just left because I couldn't deal at all. Later on, I received a call from Jae, she was very upset because Destiny knew about what happened. Jae wanted to know why I even told her about it and why I didn't come to her with the situation and i told her I couldn't because I was trying to vent to someone other than her.
We stopped talking for a whole week, I couldn't deal with stuff like that, mentally I was about to break. After that we did get back friends for another reason, but we continued to hang out when I drifted into special activities that she was against. We still got into little arguments or she just used to disagree with me about stuff and I felt she did these things on purpose to make me angry. Fast forward about a month to September and we are on the last few strings of our friendship. We barely talked or hung out and i was in the hospital for a kidney infection. My sister was really bothered by having to take me to urgent care and the hospital which i felt was completely tom foolery, didn't make any since once so ever. My sister left me and my mom at the hospital. When I got home, me and my mom went to go get my medicine. When I did return, me and Jae went to subway (where my sister works) to get some food. I then proceeded to tell her what my sister did then she started taking my sister' side and we started arguing. At this point I was crying and I really couldn't deal, I was ready to cut our friendship off.
A week or two went passed and we weren't communicating the ame and our friendship wasn't even a friendship, I hated being her friend. She started hanging out with my sister and she told her about the activities I had been engaged into and my sister ended up telling my mom which got me into a lot of trouble and that's when me and her really stopped being friends. I was not about to let her do that to me.
After everything that happened in our friendship that was the last time I will ever let someone do that to me. I currently have no close friends. In all, I just felt like I had no one when I really just needed someone. I personally never felt betrayed like that in my life. I'm never down for fake stupid friends who like to argue over stupid things. When I was supposed to have a friend that was down for me, a boy that was down for me, when people were supposed ti be down for me, no one actually was. I did honestly put my trust in the wrong individuals. I saw signs with my own eyes and I had a gut feeling something like this would happen. People are never who you think they are.