Why Do I Still Love You?

Chapter 1

It all started with a note. One stupid little note. I had liked Matt all year. He was smart, nice, funny, what could be wrong?

What had happened was, I wrote him a note asking him out. We only had a few days left of school so it was now or never. It said:

"Matt- I don't know if you like me. But I really like you.

First, he laughed and showed all of his friends, and then, he wrote back. It said:

"I WOULD NEVER DATE A LOSER LIKE YOU!"

It was SO EMBARRASSING! Then summer passed and it was great. Now I'm back at school. It's my first day. And I'm scared of what Matt and his friends will say and/or do.

I walk in the doors of my school. I'm in seventh grade and I'm super nervous. I walk to my locker and see my friend Sierra. She's standing with her other friend Clarissa. I walk over to them. "HEY!!!!" They both squeal. "Oh my gosh!! We missed you!!! How was your summer?"

"Pretty good." I say. "How wa-" I begin to say and then Sierra cuts me off. She tends to do that a lot. It bugs me but I don't usually bring it up. I'll take any friends I can get.

"So I hear Matt is SUPER HOT! He's the new quarterback of the football team and he's super popular!" Sierra says.

"Oh wow. That's nice. Thanks Sierra, for reminding me of the asshole." I say.

She knows what he did and she STILL brings it up. Hopefully I will meet better friends this year. .

Speaking of the devil, Matt and a few of his other friends walk by. One of his friends walks over to me and chuckles and says,

"So Mrs.Peterson, do you and Matt plan on having any children?" He and his friends laugh and they all walk away.

Peterson is Matt's last name. Cute. I'm so pissed off. Sierra gives me a look and laughs at me. Yeah she fucking laughs!!!!!

"What the hell Sierra?!?! It's not funny!" I say.

"It's kind of funny." She chuckles. "Fuck you Sierra." I say and walk away.

I can't believe this. I walk to my home base and see Matt sitting in the back. And the only seat left is the one RIGHT NEXT TO HIM. Shit! I go and sit down because of my lack of other choices and hear giggles from other people.

"There were no other seats." I say to Matt.

"Do you guys hear something?" He says obnoxiously.

Kind of sucky compared to other things he has said, but he still made everyone else laugh.

"Whatever." I say.

"What did you just say to me?!" He whispers angrily.

"Nothing!" I say, suddenly scared.

He's never physically bullied me yet. But then again, it's a new year.

"Listen bitch. Meet in the back of the school during lunch hour. Ya hear me?" He says even angrier.

I just nod my head scared. I don't understand what I did. He's going to kill me. He's going to fucking kill me.

I get through the rest of my classes fine, but then the lunch bell rings. Something tells me I'm not having lunch today. I go to the back of the school and see him and his friends standing there. They all laugh when they see me.

"Well look who showed up?" His friend Garrett says.

"W-what do you w-want Matt?" I say, feeling both scared and awkward.