His Hidden Little Secrets

February 1st, BCD

Hey guys! The song that Saige plays on the piano in this chapter is Skinny Love by Birdy, to which I have a video of up above if you don't know the song. I love this song and I feel like it fits Saige well.

Note that I purposely don't have Saige mention many details, especially in this chapter, because it shows more of the hidden mystery to not only her but the story as well!

Enjoy<3

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Stop.

I was so lost. I was so confused. I was so unsure. Yet, I was sure that I didn't know myself. I didn't even know my own secrets.

Stop.

Carter didn't understand me. He never would. Never would.

Stop.

He had too many of his own problems. He would get upset and angry sometimes. But other than that, we was a happy person. He was a good boyfriend.

Stop.

I sat at home on the bench in front of my piano. I closed my eyes.

I could feel people watching watching me. I could tell that they were threatened by me. Or maybe I was threatening them?

But wait, I realized. Saige, Saige, Saige. There was no one in the room with me.

Just me, my hands, and my piano. And oxygen.

I took a deep breath and began to play my favorite song. I let the music flow throughout my body and I focused on the delicate touch of my fingertips on the keys.

Stop.

So I stopped playing.

I know you're secret.

Secret?

You're hiding me.

Hiding who? Hiding what?

I covered my ears with my hands. This voice wouldn't leave me alone. It's been present for a month now and it's slowly getting bigger and bigger.

But it kept talking. It was only getting louder.

STOP HIDING ME.

I covered my face with my hands, trying to (ironically) hide myself.

I CAN SEE YOU.

I wanted to run.

I AM WITH YOUR EVERY MOVE.

I pinched myself.

YOU CAN'T GET AWAY.

Why wasn't I waking up? I pinched myself again, harder. Until I bled.

STOP HIDING ME.

This wasn't a dream.

So I screamed. I screamed to make Them go away. I wasn't really frightened; I just wanted Them to go.

My mom rushed down the stairs. Her eyes were big and her hand was over her chest. "What happened?" She cried.

I was now in a puddle of tears. But I knew They were gone now, so I should've been happy, not crying.

"I don't know," I replied to her.

"You screamed for no goddamn reason? Jesus, Saige, you gave me a heart attack!"

I got up from the bench and hugged her as tight as I could. Maybe I shouldn't be alone anymore, I thought. I needed someone to protect me.

"Saige... Something happened, didn't it?" Mom said.

"No."

"Saige, tell me."

"There's nothing to tell."

Mom let go of me and backed up away from me. She stared at me for a minute and cocked her head. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Nothing?" I replied.

She snorted. "Okay. Sure. If you need to scream for me about something that actually happens, I'll be upstairs watching Oprah reruns."

"Alright."

I ran downstairs to call Carter. Then I ran outside because I didn't want to be in a small basement.

"Hey, Babe," Carter said when he answered. "What's up?"

"Can you go to the park?"

"Oh, um yeah..." He said. "I'm free, but I was thinking that we could maybe go to a movie? There's a new movie out that looks really cool-"

"Can we go to the park?

He laughed. "Is there a reason why you want to go to the park?"

"No," I said seriously. "Can we go to the park?

His voice got concerned. "Yeah, we can go to the park."

I breathed a sigh of relief. Once we go to the park, They will be able to be more spread out and not be more close to me.

"Okay," I said. I hung up the phone.

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Apologies for the short chapter, however I purposely made it that way, too.

The bonus chapter that I promised will be out by Wednesday!

Leave plenty of comments (and questions?) you have for me!

xoxo