Save me

Chapter 1: Colorless

[Maya's Pov]

Everything I see is black and white. I just know it can't be in color, because that would mean it would mean I'm happy. But I'm not happy! Not at all. My life is hell. I always think that death would be better than this. Death would be peaceful, you wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore. I did have color in my life once. When I had my mom, my life was filled with color! We were so happy. But then she died when I was 12 and that's when I lost all the color to my life. I know what you're probably thinking am I colorblind? The answer is no. I can see color I just choose to see black and white because color shows happiness and that's not what this world is. This world is a colorless hell! Well that's what I see.

My real dad left me when I was just a baby. I don't remember anything about him. There's no pictures of him anywhere. He's just.... Gone.
Do I miss him? I can't really answer that because I don't know anything about him. But I hope he would come back. I just want to talk to him or something. He can't be that bad right? I bet he's a lot better than my dad Steven. He hates me. He hurts me and calls me a bitch, slut, whore, ect. He blamed me for my mom dying... He drinks too much and smokes. He won't have a good conversation with me. Hell he won't even talk to me like a good father or even a friend. I just can't wait until I turn 18 and can move out and never see him again.

I hate my life. It's just a living hell. Why couldn't I be happy? Why couldn't my mom stay and not die? Why did the world have to be a place for me?

I sigh as I get out of my bed. "I think that's enough thinking" I said while standing up, stretching my arms.
I walk over to a mirror to look at myself. I look at my eyes that are red and puffy. "Another day without you momma" I said quietly trying to not cry.

I started to get dressed for school wearing a plain blue top that buttons up, black skinny jeans and just some boots to go with it. I comb my long brown hair and keep it down. I actually only wear my hair up if it's for a special occasion. I get my school bag and sling it over my shoulders, grab my phone and leave my room.

I walked down the hallway that leads to the stairs, I started to walk down the stairs quietly, trying to not wake up Steven. But it really doesn't help because the stairs creek every time you step on them. I made it down the stairs and walks slowly to the kitchen to get something to eat. I decided to just make a bowl of cereal so I don't make that much noise. When I was done eating my cereal, I slowly go back upstairs to the bathroom and brush my teeth. I look at myself in the mirror one more time. I know I don't have the perfect body that every boy wants but I'm not below average. I'm not fat but not that skinny either, I don't have the smallest breasts but they aren't big, I don't have a pretty face but I try.
"I wish you were here mom" I say while closing my eyes and hugging my chest tightly.

I start to let go of my chest and walk back downstairs to the living room. As I was walking by the couch I saw him. He was passed out with a beer bottle in his hand. He went drinking with his friends last night and I guess he didn't even make it to his room. Quietly I take the beer bottle out of his hand and set it down. He caught my hand and I already knew I was fucked.

He looked at me with those cold eyes he has. I was so scared, my heart was beating fast, so fast that I thought it was going to explode. I looked down immediately and looked at the floor. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out so I close it and just stare at the wooden floor.

"What the hell were you doing?!" He yelled at me, grabbing my face hard to make me look at him.
"I-I'm s-sorry!" I said to him and tried not to show him that I was in pain.
"Sorry?! You're sorry?! Don't you ever fuckin touch me in my sleep again, you fuckin bitch! Understand?"
I nod my head and he lets go of my face.
"Good now leave!" He said as he threw me at the door. My back hit the door hard and felt like I broke my spine. I opened the door and ran out as fast as I could. I unlock my car and get inside, I started the car and drove away.