A collection of cute words » Joshler

I must forewarn you

(Note: this story(s possibly.) are going to be probably just one chapter and long, because it's not going to have be a 'series' just small stories!.)

               Tyler was scared.
Always scared. He didn't know why, but he was. Small things scared him, like when his mother knocked on his door, or when his phone rang. He wished small things like that didn't, but wishing didn't help. And he knew that, but he still couldn't help but feel sorry for himself, feel like an annoyance. He wanted to hide away forever, crawl in bed and never come out, never have people check on him again, but that's a little hard when you're autistic. He didn't really understand what that meant, but he knew it was there. Always there. Something he would have to carry with him forever. Though he rarely came out of his room, he still found a way to be needy. So needy. Always tugging at his mothers sleeves, hiding behind her, making her talk for him. Making her tell him she loved him often. She knew it was something he couldn't help, so she didn't think twice when he would say 'do you love me?' With a little lisp. But one day, she couldn't take it anymore. So she gave Tyler's younger brother 30 dollars and told him to take Tyler anywhere he wanted to go. She knew it could end badly, but she wasn't in the mood to hear Tyler whine about the colors and sounds only he could hear. So, at Tyler's request, they went to the comic store. Tyler didnt go many other places other than the comic book store, he normally just sat at home, writing songs or playing on his piano. But the comic book store was one of his favorite places. And there was a boy who worked there, He had such pretty hair. he didn't know his name, the hair was really one of the only things Tyler knew about him. And that made Tyler sad, because anyone who saw the boy knew that. It was common knowledge, and he didn't want to know just the common knowledge, he wanted to know everything about the boy. But he didn't. Either way, he still fascinated Tyler, he had this way of talking, it fascinated tyler. he couldn't help but stare at his lips every time words spilled out, like a waterfall. That's all he thought about on the way to the comic book store. "Okay ty, we're here" the younger boy said. Tyler sat there for a minute after zack had turned the car off. "Ty?" Tyler's cheeks went pink. "C-can you help me?" He looked down at his seatbelt, he always had trouble with it and ended up getting very angry, and he didn't want to get angry today. Zack sighed, trying not to sound annoyed. Tyler frowned, this was just one reason why he hated going out. Zack reached over and unbuckled the seatbelt quickly. "T-thank you" Tyler said in a very quite voice. He couldn't help but feel embarrassed. He didn't feel like he could do anything. He opened his door and started walking up to the comic book store. He saw the boy with vibrant red hair through the glass doors. he smiled. A real smile, something he hadn't done in what felt like forever. He loved the feeling, happiness. It wasn't something that came often to tyler but when it did he held on to it. He took a deep breath in and walked in. Zack frowned as Tyler couldn't wait 5 seconds for him to walk up and open the door for both of them. He rolled his eyes but didn't say anything, just tried to give Tyler some space while still keeping an eye on him. Tyler knew zack was watching him, but he didn't care, he was just watching josh, hoping he would start talking soon, so he could watch the water of words flow out. He hadn't heard his voice, but he was sure it was a beautiful sound. He was sure he spoke beautiful words of intelligence. But he was also sure, he would never speak those words to Tyler, nor would anyone else. Tyler would never have anyone speak beautiful words to him, he couldn't even imagine living past 20. Yet, here he was 26. He didn't know how he would die, but he didn't think he would last long. The boy with bright red hair looked up, and Tyler was too mesmerized to look away, the boy had caught tyler  staring, and now had a puzzled look on his face, Tyler's mouth was open in a big 'o' form, he was in shock. The boy with the beautiful hair was looking at him. He smiled and waved at Tyler,  "Hi!" He said in a very cheery voice. Tyler looked around, checking to make sure he wasn't talking to someone else. dumbfounded, Tyler gathered all the courage he could find in himself, pointed at himself and said "M-me?" The boys smile got even bigger, if possible. "Yeah you!"  Tyler was sitting on the ground looking at a lower shelf of old comics, he stood up and walked over to the counter that the boy was sitting behind. "What's up, buttercup?" Josh says, still grinning. Tyler blushed "What's your name?" He asks looking up at the still blushing boy. "Tyler Joseph." "Well, Tyler Joseph, I'm Joshua dun, but you can call me josh" josh. It fit him so well, it was as beautiful as him. "I think I'll call you joshy" Tyler said, smiling so big. "Joshy, huh?, that's a new one." Tyler giggled, pulling his hand up to his face, covering every part of his face other than his eyes with his sweater paws. "Joshy it is then." Josh laughed. "J-joshy, can I touch y-your hair?" Tyler asked, a little muffled because of his sweater. Josh came out from behind the counter "Of course you can ty!" He said, you could practically hear his smile in his voice. "T-ty?" "Well, I figured, since you can call me joshy, it's only fair for me to have a nickname for you" Tyler smiled, still covering his face so josh couldn't see. But before Tyler could get his paws ( ;) !! ) on Josh's  hair, josh heard another costumer in the store call for help. "Just a second I'll be right back okay?" Josh said frowning a bit, Tyler just nodded his head.