Love

Chapter 1

(Alarm clocks goes off)
I wake up time for another shitty day at my boring as school with the same boring as people. I get up I walk in the bathroom and I look in the mirror and I brush my teeth and I look deep in the mirror into my deep light Browns and think about the girl in my second period the way she carries herself it's so sexy, I just wanna tell her how I really feel but my self-esteem won't let me. I got into my room I grab some black joggers and my low black vans and I put on my hoodie and grab my car keys and head to school. I'm in the car and I turn on the radio and I play Tyler the creator 2 seater and I speed I'm not even late I just like the adrenaline rush it gives me then I stop at a gas station and I walk in and I see my crush and she's just buying snacks for class and I grab me some hot buffalo wing ruffles and she walks up to me and whispers in my ear and says I always thought you were cute.
I look over and she's gone so I go up to the counter and pay for my chips and I go back to my car and as I'm driving I see her walking to school and I pull over and I ask her wanna ride? She replies with a yeah. She gets in and she says thank for the ride and she asked what's my name I tell her Symba. She says like lion king , that's cute. Yeah I guess it is some what. We pull up to the school and we get out and her best friend walks up to her and is like who is that you were riding with she says oh a friend. As I'm walking to class I'm
Thinking to my self that's all we will ever be is just friends, she doesn't want anything else but to be my friend. I'm walking down the hallway and I bump into this guy and he says oh sorry and he helps me pick up my books and everything and he says oh hey Symba you probably don't know me but I know every body knows and I reply with how, because your in drama club you have a 3.8 gpa and your just this awesome dude from
What I hear. Well don't listen to everything you hear unless it's from the source. I get to my class and the teacher is calling roll and I look over and I see her she just looks at me and smiles and its like one of those weird smiles that makes you question your ability to love someone without even knowing their birthday. The teacher calls my name I answer.
As I'm sitting down she comes and walks up to me and says hey symba how are you this morning? I reply I gave you a ride to school and we talked in the car so what's up? Oh nothing just wanted to see if you could give me a ride home from school? Ughh sure. She walks away and goes back to her set class is over  and as I'm walking to my next class a guy walk up to me the same guy from  earlier he just smiles at me and runs away I just keep walking to class and when I get into class I went straight to sleep. I start dreaming of me driving in a bummer e46 and she's right next to me and she says I love you and can't wait for the wedding and then i wake up. I get up and I got lunch and she's right there getting a soda I walk up to her all confident and soft spoken like childish gambino and she says what you want symba?
Oh nothing much I would like to get your number and she says sure so she gives me her number and I walk to my table I see my brother prince well he isn't really my brother just my best friend but he is gay so he help me pull bitches. Prince wassup man? Oh nothing I'm just chilling and shit I saw you over there talking to her. Yeah man I got her number and I'm
Giving her a ride home later. That's dope man I hope you smash bro beat that thing up. Man chill it's more then just a quick fuck I wanna get to know her and feel her vibe. Yeah I feel you symba just tell her how you feel man it won't hurt bro just be real. Yeah you right prince so we still going to the movies tonight and you better bring your fagget of a boyfriend Chris. Alright I will and who are you gonna take? I'm gonna ask her when I drive her home, okay cool.It's the end of the school day and I'm waiting by my car and she Walks up to me and says get in. How are you gonna rush me into my own car? Because I can now get in symba. I get in and we pull out of the school and she says can we go some where and park? Yeah sure do I
Take her to this wide open field where you can see a waterfall, we get out of the car and sit on my roof and she says so what makes you happy? I answer honestly I don't know I wouldn't say I'm happy I would say I'm just eagerly awaiting death I mean I don't have a problem with death I just trying to find a reason for living with all of these creative outlets I have. So your just awaiting something life doesn't hand you nothing symba you have to go out and grab it that's your thing you just think that life is all good until you die wishing you did more. Yeah you right so what made you wanna come here with me I always thought you were beautiful in everyday I just wanna chill with you next Saturday. Okay so what are we gonna do and you better not say Netflix and chill because I'm not having sex with you until your my boyfriend. I kinda smile a little bit then I ask what is your name you never told me. My name is passion. Wow that's a interesting name so why do you like me I wanna know? Because your just yourself not being a zombie like everyone else here. So what is it like being you passion? Well since you ask ever since I was a little girl I always wanted to be happy but I never knew what happiness came from until I saw the joy I had when helping out little kids and helping them with their reading and writing so you can say I wanna be a teacher. But me as a person I just love having people around or someone maybe even something to kill the loneliness in my heart because my dad was always working and my mom didn't really care at times to busy cheating on my father with the mail man it's just weird. I see so you just wanna be happy and I wanna bring it to you like I have had a crush on you since 8th grade ever since the valentine day dance. Oh yeah I remember you were dancing real funny to Impress me. I ask did it work and she just simply stares at me then I lean in and kiss her and now we are making out on the hood of my car as music plays in the background. I ask her so you wanna be my date to the movies tonight are what? Sure I'll go with you but it is not a date, yes it is. We get in the car and I grip her thigh and she smiles and kisses my cheek and as we're driving she starts telling me stories of her childhood. We get out the car we pull up at her house she walks up to her bedroom and we lay on her bed and talk about school she says she wants to go to Atlanta for school, I tell her I wanna act and live out my dreams and be happy for once. We talk about happiness for a bit I tell her happiness is fading because we can't really do things that makes us happy we just dream about it and that sucks. I ask her why am I so sad and unhappy all the time? She says because you're always thinking about what you wanna do and that makes you sad because you don't know if you will have a chance to do it, you have every right to fear life you're only human.