The Islands Curse

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I know everyone hates these things but please, read it when you have a chance, I'll be soo grateful if you do

IM SOO SORRY FOR NOT UPLOADING FOR SOO DAMN LONGG !! now for the excuses and hope not to be killed by you guys.................. i had depression, yes that thing that drives everyone away, that thing that is taken lightly even though its worse than you think, and its not gone, its gotten wrost, ive had it for some time now but i didn't think it was depression until summer i guess and i......i started cutting my arms/wrists-- i still do and yes, the picture above is my arm (im really sorry if it bugs anyone or triggers somone, you have my most sincere apology), its one of the most recent cuts ive done and most of all.....im starting to lose emotions-- my emotions, i feel useless-- correction, i am useless and for those who take depression lightly, i envy you-- yes envy, i bet you didn't expect that huh ? i envy you because you don't have it and you can just joke about it like its nothing-- you dont feel our pain i also suffer from anxiaty disorder, i get panic attacks and its something beyond amd totally different from fear its-- in my mind wrose (Kian Lawley reference) but it really is wrose, i don't know how to explain it but yeah, my uncle and aunt died 3 days apart from each other, my family makes me feel like sh*t, i don't get bullied but i do get bullied by their words even my closest of friends (even though they don't notice it) make fun of me all the time and i know some of them don't notice others do that-- but they do. I hate this, i hate it, im so done with everything, i f*cking hate my life-- it sucks. The only things that have been with me through thick amd thin is my guitar, 2 friends, and most of all music, music has saved my life in so many occasions. But that's barely an excuse so-- again IM SO SORRY !! I'm going to write chapter 1 write now so I'll see if i can uploade it today, if not tomorrow thank you for your patience and sorry